New Year. Better me .....

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March 18, 2020

I haven't been here in a long time to share. IRL I've been having a lot of issues due to death in the family and a lot go other things. I shut down when I get into situations such as death and other misfortunate (Using that word reminds me of the game little misfortune. Heard of it?) events. I'm tired when it comes to me living and doing day to day things.

I wanted to be more adventurous this year and live differently but I feel I'm in the same loop I was in last year. I've been working a lot and currently being in school I haven't been in a very positive mental space. I would like to be in a more positive space, but I can't force myself to be there, so I've decided to go through the motions as they come.

March 20, 2020

Today started pretty well, I slept in a felt great once I woke up. I didn't have many negative throughs today just because I've been trying to stay away from those. With the social distancing due to COVID-19, I haven't been out a lot I've been inside all day until I have to work. I haven't had a great year so far I've had a lot of sad events surrounding me recently. I've lost a grandmother recently (not biologically but through my Godfather), she passes away March 4th and I've been a little out of wack since then but I'm dealing pretty well.

There are certain things that I won't admit openly at the moment but I've been going through

a lot of stuff when it comes to my love life. It SUCKS ASSSSSSSSS...

I'm sorry I'm a still not in a space to put my thoughts into words, I'll try again tomorrow and see

If it'll go better then.

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