My Fear Landscape

My Fears

The final stage of initiation was said to be the toughest. You had to face all your fears and you had to do it as fast as you could if you wanted to become a member of Dauntless.
I transferred to Dauntless from Erudite. I couldn't stand that place it's so full of evil I couldn't take it any longer. I was also told by two different people to switch factions. The person who ran my aptitude test and my father told me to switch to a different faction because staying in Erudite was dangerous. They're killing Divergents and I am one. The person who ran my test, Tori, told me that I had an aptitude for three different factions, which was rare. Dauntless, Erudite, and Candor were the factions the test said that I was fit for. Tori had to erase the test and enter a faction manually so that I wouldn't be killed. She told me to switch factions and not to tell anyone, but when I got home I had to tell my dad so that he knew why I was switching. He agreed with what Tori told me, and promised that he'd visit me on Visiting Day, (and he did). The following day at the Choosing Ceremony I chose Dauntless, and now here I am standing in a room in the Pire above Dauntless headquarters.
One of the Dauntless leaders, Eric, put the needle in my neck and pressed the plunger down. I had to ask myself; Why was I trusting Eric with something by my neck? A few seconds later the room went dark and I waited for something to happen. I was told that it took a few seconds before the serum projected the hallucination. So I counted to ten and it was still dark. Then I realized that this was the simulation.
I heard something shuffling behind me. I turned around to see what it was. I couldn't see anything, in fact the room got darker when I turned. Then I heard more movement too my left. I whipped around, but I couldn't see anything. The room got even darker. My heart started to pick up speed.
That's when the screams started. Blood curdling screams that I recognized as my friends and family. I kept turning trying to see something, but the more I turned the darker it got, and tenser the screams became. I finally gave up, and just stood there. My heart thumping as loud as the screams, and my breath rapid with terror. The screams unmistakably belonged to my friends and family, which made it worse. I covered my ears with my hands and crouched down, putting my head between my knees. The screams were driving me insane, and my fear of the dark was certainly not helping. Then I heard a voice in the back of my head saying: what are you doing this isn't real! It's all a simulation!
The voice was right, I needed to face this. I lifted my head, stood up, closed my eyes, and let my arms drop. The screams got thicker, and louder, but I just stood there as if I couldn't hear them. I stayed like that until the screams disappeared, and I could see red through my eyelids. I opened my eyes. The sun was blaring, there was a slight breeze, and I looked out over the tops of skyscrapers. I looked down, my heart beat tripled, and my hands began to shake with fear. I stood on top of the Hub. I knew what I had to do.
I gulped, and jumped off. I feared heights, but mainly it was of falling. My heart thumped so hard it hurt, and my breaths were keeping speed with my heart. Surprisingly I didn't scream, then again how could I while falling at high speeds. I had to get my heart rate down or else I was going to keep falling until I relaxed. I took as deep a breath in as I could and spread my body out like I was going to fall on to a big fluffy bed.
Then the next thing I know I'm sitting in the Upper levels school cafeteria with all my friends from both my new and old factions. My family made up the table next to my friends and I. We were all laughing, then when I blinked the lights went out and everyone's heads were slumped forward. Again my heart rate quickened, and my breaths were full of panic. I began rushing to pretty much everyone checking if they had a pulse or not. After I checked them all. I slumped against a wall and slid to the floor. The thought of everyone I love and care about being gone was too much. I felt a tear go down my face and quickly I wiped it away, and got up. This wasn't real. What it is, is a cruel stage of initiation, that taught you to face your fears. I walked to the middle of the space between the two tables and turned in circles taking it all in. My heart and breathes had already slowed down so what was left was to accept the fact that in the simulation everyone was dead and that I was alone.
Lights turned on, and once again I was standing in a huge room in the Pire, shaking. Three fears, I had only three fears. They said that it was rare to have a little less then ten fears. It had to be some sort of record. Darkness, falling, and being alone. Those are my three fears. The three fears that define me.