I just woke up from a dream where my dog was pulling me on her leash towards him and he was on the floor painting and I accidentally got white paint on my denim jacket and I was like "whatever" and he was laughing very hard (which is what he'd do in real life if that had happened 😔🥺) and then we were talking and then I randomly started crying because I had my AirPods in and a sad song was playing (I went to bed with my sad playlist playing so maybe that's why I was hearing sad music) and so I hugged him tightly and then he turned me around to wrap his arms around me and hold my hands and put hands were sweaty and shaky because our hands both shake. Then I eventually fell asleep in his arms. I woke up later at his house and I wasn't in my own body but I was listening to his thoughts and he was saying "I love her so much" blah blah blah. And his friend comes over (idk who this guy is but I swear I've seen him before and he's kinda cute not gonna lie) and I'm back in my own body and his friend and I hit it off and we're flirting because I want to make Cross jealous and I am holding his friend's hand and stuff and then we're at this one place and it's kind of like a circus but also a bedroom and I'm siting on the floor and Cross is on a stage because he's presenting something because he's in ASB and his friend is sitting a few feet away from me so we slowly start moving closer to each other until I am laying down in his lap playing and he's playing with my hair. Cross sees and is clearly upset so he makes a couple TikToks about it and there was a caption on it and it said "the LOML is with my friend" and the song for it was "heart been broke so many times I I don't know what to believe" (which is a song he used to sing in class) and then I went to text Cross to confront him about it and I waited for him...THEN MY OLDER BROTHER WOKE ME UP
Ok so he actually texted me first today and he sent me my guy friends Snapchat of his new blonde hair and I said that my friend looked like a chicken nugget (which he does ok?!😂) and then he ignored my daily fact about grapes exploding in microwaves and started sending me memes and TikToks😂.
He called me a tumor on his back that he can never get rid of and I asked him why I had to be on his back and why couldn't I choose where to be on his body (😏😉) and he said because I can't decide "just like in real life" (I overthink a lot and am indecisive) and he was basically re-enacting a conversation between us and he said "hey is this correct?" (Which is him) "Yes.....no....yes" (that would be me) and I uhhh!!! Why am I like this?!? IS THIS WHO HE SEES ME AS?!?! Anyways I argued with him and then he left me on read
Sunday 3/22/2020
So today was a bit weird we started talking about this dog who got into jam
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And we got into an argument. So he called me a weirdo and I called him one back and I said because he threatened to punch me and staple my head, and that he was trying to find my house address and other things and he said "see this is why I don't like to you sometimes because u take everything so seriously" and so I told him that I'm just joking about these things and I'm making fun of him for saying them and he said that these jokes I'm making aren't funny. I kind of felt bad and didn't wanna get him mad or upset anymore than he probably already was and so I said "I never said it was [funny] but sorry if you're or annoyed by it. I won't bring it up anymore if it bother you that much" and he said "it's ok" and I said "are you sure?" And he said "it's fine" and I said "are you sure sure! Because some people say it's fine when it really isn't" and be sent me the picture of the jam dog from above and said "if you don't shit up this will be you 😚" awww he's so sweet 😂🥰.
