Using a Subliminal and Does it Work?

Week of "We should be at school but we're not" #2 (Back to School Edition)

Saturday 4/4/2020

Sooo we didn't talk today. And I think I'm gonna start listening to my subliminals again. Just to see if it helps out more.

I also feel like letting him go 😔 being away from him has made me realize that this is what it's going to be like next year. Him a senior and me a junior. 99.9% sure we're not gonna have any classes together and he'll just be a memory. A lonely memory. Sitting with him for 10 weeks of school. Those 10 weeks meant a lot to me. Yes I know he lives two streets away from me (5 minutes away to be exact) but it's not like we're gonna have much to talk about during the next school year.

It's like every day I go without talking to him the more I lose feelings and I should text to him more but I feel like I'm being annoying constantly texting him. I will just text him every once in a while for chemistry help because our teacher isn't using Zoom to teach us!! She's giving us weekly assignments and we have to do it on our own so I might ask Cross to use Zoom with me and my friend in that class so we can do it all together.

Sunday 4/5/2020

We didn't talk today. I didn't go overboard and check his snap map and snap score every second of the day and when I saw his snapscore go up it didn't bother me as much because I found out that your snapscore goes up when someone Snapchats you too.

Monday 4/6/2020

We didn't talk today.

Tuesday 4/7/2020

We didn't talk today. I want to text him thought but I don't know what to say.

Wednesday 4/8/2020

We didn't talk today.

Thursday 4/9/2020

We didn't talk today. I cried over him at 5 am though. Something about Madison Beer's song "Selfish" just hits different at that time. I know I should let Cross go ("shouldn't love you but I couldn't help it") but I know that if I do contact him, (idk if we're doing group work or something for chemistry) I'm going to be right at the beginning with these feelings again.

Oh and Alec Benjamin released his song "Six Feet Apart" and oh my lord why does he gotta make me cry even more😭?!

I gotta stop simpin and start pimpin.

Friday 4/10/2020

I saw this TikTok where this girl sent an ender pearl to her crush and said something about their ender pearl showing up in his dms and that's how to shoot your shot so I decided to send it to Cross

"Woah looks like my ender pearl landed here😅 Anyways what's up?"

And he said "😐 I hate online school" and I said that I kinda like online school only because I can sleep in late and I asked him if he has a lot of work to do and he said he does and he asked me if had a lot of work and I said no and I added that my history teacher has gone MIA so I had no history work and he said the same thing for his history teacher.

I always thought his history teacher was an English teacher and I joked saying that his history teacher had the corona virus and he said "no he's just depressed" and I said back "what?! A history teacher that's depressed? Never heard of that before" and he said that the teacher used to be an accountant and I was like "no wonder he's depressed"

I needed his opinion on my art project and I made two different ones so I wanted to know which one he liked better and he chose one and I asked him if he need to take a fine art next year and he said he does and that he's taking video production next year which is what I'm taking next year 👀.