out of love | ethan dolan

FORTY

I walked into the cafeteria and headed over to the lunch table. I seen Eleanor was there and I sighed. I sat down next to Ethan as all the boys talked.

"You're quiet today. What's going on?" Ethan asked me. I shrugged my shoulders. Keaton glanced up at me.

"Paisley, you're not sitting here anymore. Find a new spot," Keaton demanded. I raised my eyebrows.

"But Keaton, Ethan is my boyf-"

"Get the fuck out of here, little sis." He snapped. The boys got quiet as I stood up. I heard footsteps behind me as I walked away.

I spun around and seen Ethan. "Don't come with me, please. Go sit with them. I'm okay." He furrowed his eyebrows.

"No. I don't want to sit with them, I want to sit with you." He pleaded. "What's going on? You have to talk to me."

"Sit down, Ethan. I just want to be alone right now." I asked. He sighed and nodded his head.

"I'm sorry, but if that's what you want. Just call me tonight, please," he smiled as he turned back around and sat down.

I sighed as I exited the cafeteria. I didn't have lunch with Lyndsay so I was pretty much screwed. I walked to Mr. Palmer's room since I knew he didn't have a class.

I knocked on his door and he opened it. "Paisley? Why aren't you at lunch?"

"Can we discuss the baby project?" I asked. He nodded his head and allowed me to enter his classroom. "I don't want to do it. Is there anything else I can do?"

"No, this is apart of your grade. Everyone else is doing it."

"Please. Anything but this. I don't want to be partners with anyone, I just want to do a science project."

He sighed. "What's happening? Why don't you want to care for the doll? Is it your partner? Did he do something?" He asked millions of questions.

"I don't want to talk about, Mr. Palmer. I'm just asking that you give me a new assignment. I'll turn my baby in and you can give it to Kendrick." I asked.

"Fine. I'll tell you next week what your new assignment is. Bring the doll."

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I entered my fifth period, which was English. Another class with Grayson. I sat down next to him and he smiled. I sighed as the bell rang.

"Hey, are you alright?" He asked me. I looked at him and nodded my head. I fake-smiled but he glared at me.

"I'm fine."

"Are you sure, Paisley? You look like you haven't slept and you're not as smiley as normal." He told me.

"I'm alright, Grayson." I retorted. He went quiet as the teacher began instructing. I couldn't even listen to her, I just zoned out.

I thought about how Keaton had practically despised me now since I'd said those things at my dad's. I thought about how my mom said Ethan was bad news for me.

I just wished I could go back and time. I wish I never hooked up with Ethan at that party. I wish I never fell in love with him.

I love being with him, but the rest of the world doesn't like us. It makes me think that it isn't our time. Maybe it's not.

But he was all I had left. We got our initials tattooed on each other, that's how committed we both are.

I completely took Ethan from Keaton and destroyed their friendship, they aren't as close as they used to be. Things felt so different and I hated it.