By the time we were ten I believed I had convinced myself that I didn't want you anymore. I was determined to believe that you would only be my best friend and never anything more.
I had also convinced myself that the person I was interested in was Missy Robertson... and I was, just not as much as I was interested in you.
Missy had become one of our closest friends at that time in our lives. I remember thinking that I liked her because her parents were like mine... that she understood that sometimes forever doesn't work out. I also remember overhearing her tell her friends that she liked me too.
So one day, after playing together like we always did near the lake near my mother's house, I decided it was time to tell you.
My face became warm, as I asked, "Can I tell you a secret?"
It was like I lit a fire in your eyes, you wanted to know my secret, you wanted to hear me say I liked you.. that I wanted you.. but I never wanted to hurt you.
Not like my dad hurt my mom by leaving her.
So I took a deep breath and let out the words, I knew would darken your eyes.
"I like-like Missy"
Now they weren't exactly the type of words that would be considered earth-shattering but to you they were.
To my best friend, to the girl I wanted more then I wanted anything in the world, they were words that forced the breath out of her lungs and brought her world crashing down.
You left early that day, my mom said you left looking unwell...sad. And I regretted the words I couldn't take back.
So I lied and told myself that you were okay. I let you convince me you were okay.
I wish I hadn't.
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