Stimulations

Chapter 5 , dreams and reality

Dreams ...... Some are a blessing and some are a curse . They torture you with the future you want , but they also show you how it will never happen . I'm not sure yet if mine was a blessing or curse . But it is something I will remember forever . I had liked him for a long time . Secretly . But I didn't realize how bad I wanted it . Somehow it was to much to think about . But not enough to stop believing could happen .
I stood put in the hallway . Laughing at my drunkenness histaricaly. He came down the hallway . A bottle in his hands . His black muscle shirt did well to complement his eyes . " who said you can get dressed ?" I asked laughingly . All he did was give that beautiful smile . I felt amazing . He walked over , handing me the bottle and I took more swigs . " what happened earlier ? I don't remember anything " I chuckled . " you spray painted your old house ' my dad and Jeanine ' , then you took black spray paint and wrote very bad words all over the rest of the house " we laughed together . He put his hand on my shoulder to help him stand , and I fell . We hit the floor ..... Hard .... And laughed again . I had dropped the bottle , which shattered . " oh no " Eric said . " crap ........ No more wine " still unable to stop the laughter . He pulled me closer , his hands wrapping around my waist . My boobs on his chest .
He pulled me up , pushing me against the wall . His lips pressing on my neck , slowly gliding down to my collar bone . I let out a not so quite sigh . And he chuckled . " I've liked you for a long time " , " I have to ..... But you .....and Lynn "
" that's over "
" did you know about her ... And four "
He stopped and pulled away . I gave a groan of frustration . I hung my head . But all that did was make it hit his shoulder . He pushed me harder into the door . I gasped at the sudden gesture . His lips touched mine , and we didn't let them go . I slipped my hand behind me , grasping the door knob . Kicking it open with my heal . He bent down quick , swinging my legs into his arms . He just have a small smile and pressed his lips to mine . My arms wrapped around his neck . I felt warm . Was it the alcohol . Or the desire . Both were wonder full .
He stopped , set me down ,and locked the door . His room was a dark blue almost black . A small fountain laid in the back corner . It was a sculpture of a waterfall . He turned back around . Picking me up by the waist , and I let him . My legs formed a circle around his torso . He put my back against the wall . His hands grabbing the bottom of my shirt . I lifted my hands above my head . My shirt was flung onto the floor . I grabbed his , jerking it over his head as the urge became more insistent .
I reached for his belt . And tried to unbuckle it but that failed
epically . He chuckled and helped get it off .
He gently rubbed his hand down my leg . Slowly coming back up , the rim of my pants in his fingers . And he pulled down gently . It was cold . But at the same time hot .... Maybe I need more alcohol . Apparently I said it out loud . " I'll get it in a minute " his lips kissing my shoulder . He had on the cutest boxers . They where black , with white letters on them that read , " drunk and in love ""
" nice boxers "
" nice panties , he said gesturing to the Lacey blue , with a white band . We where left in our undergarments , when he pulled me over to the bed .......... And the night was ........ Magnificent .
I awoke the sound of the shower . Eric stood in the kitchen , still in his boxers , he looked tired . " morning " he turned and looked at me . He blushed and smiled . " morning beautiful " , I couldn't help but ask . " did you have fun last night " ?
" of course " he said . That beautiful smile on his face . He sat on the edge of the bed . His hand gently stroking my hair . " you're very beautiful " I blushed and smiled . " I didn't expect you to be soo ........... Muscular .......... And very attractive . You always where those baggy pants why ."
" I never had anyone tell me ...... My parents where brutally honest . They where candor . They passed in an accident when I was nine . They always said my flaws . The .... To big nose , the scrawny legs and fat stomach , ...... How ....uns,art I was.
"After the accident , I was sent to erudite to live with my aunt .. Jeanine . " I looked at him completely shocked . " I worked hard to become better , smarter , more attractive , because I wanted my parents .... Where ever they are ...... To look down and know how much better I was with them gone . They hated me tris . ..... That's why I keep things hidden , whether my emotions , or what's under the baggy clothes . "
" I'm sorry , I love you "
He gave a smile so bright . His eyes lit up beautifully . " I love you too "
He kissed me . " is that why you worked for Jeanine , ?
" I was under a stimulation , she was personally controlling me from the control room . That's why I wasn't impeached as dauntless leader . You where gone when they announced that ."
" you realize that your my brothers cousin ....... Right ?"