Matthew Espinosa Imagines

7th Imagine "I'm leaving you."

-Y/N's P.O.V.-

Matt and I were together for 5 years, we were so inlove when we first got together. At the age of 18 till the age we turned 23 we were strong and so inlove..

One day I guess he woke up and felt the need to break my heart.. He told me he didn't love me anymore... I felt like my heart shattered into a million pieces..

I didn't know what to say or do, I froze.. I felt like my world came crashing down.. Losing the love of my life was a nightmare.. I never thought i'd see the day that he would walk out of my life..

Just the night before we had got into an argument over some girl who kept texting him. He kept yelling at me and getting frustrated saying he didn't know who the girl was. I didn't believe him because as the saying goes "The person accusing you of cheating is the one who's cheating."

He had accused me a few days ago saying I was cheating on him out of no-where. I was confused and questioning myself if he's the one cheating and if he's feeling guilty of cheating so he decides to take it out on me and accuse me.

I gave him a 100 percent of true love and stayed true with him since day one. I never gave him a reason to think I was cheating on him..

After we had the argument he apologized and wanted to make it up to me. I had prayed to god that Matt was being faithful to me.. I was being faithful and I had deserved to get it in return.

Just the next day at 7 in the morning Matt felt the need to wake me up and break my heart. This is how it all went down..
I wake up hearing a loud thump, i turn and look to matt's side of the bed and see him packing stuff into his suitcase.
"What are you doing baby??" He looks down at me and his face shows no emotion.
"I'm leaving you y/n." I felt like everything was in slow motion as he zips up his suitcase and puts it by the door.
"What do you mean you're leaving me Matt? Please stop.. Put the suitcase back and talk to me.. please.." I beg him as tears slowly make their way down my face. I see him turn to look at me as he stands in the doorway and he shakes his head as he grumbly speaks "I don't love you anymore. I can't stay in a relationship with someone I don't love. That's not healthy for either of us. I'm sorry y/n, take care".
He picks up his suitcase and walks out of our bedroom and makes his way down the stairs, I stand up from the bed and run to the stairs.
I beg him one more time, "Please matt don't leave me.. I'm sorry for anything I did wrong.. Just please don't leave me.. I love you matthew.. please.." He stops walking and looks at me, I feel a cold chill run down my spine as he speaks coldly to me "I don't know what the fuck you expect from me but get this through your thick skull I DON'T LOVE YOU ANYMORE! DO I HAVE TO SPELL THAT OUT FOR YOU?! ARE YOU THAT FUCKING STUPID? HOW CLEARER DO I NEED TO GET TO HAVE YOU UNDERSTAND I'M LEAVING YOU AND I'M NOT COMING BACK!." He raises his voice at me and breathes heavily, his face is red. I feel like i can't breathe.. He licks his lips and walks out of the front door, i run down the stairs out the front door yelling his name.
"You don't understand how much i love you matt! Why are you leaving me??!! Why can't you tell me why you're leaving?!." He puts his suitcase in the trunk of his car and as he shuts it he raises his voice at me again "I TOLD YOU WHY I'M FUCKING LEAVING Y/N!! I DON'T LOVE YOU ANYMORE!." He goes to the driver side of the car and opens the door and I angrily speak "It's that stupid bitch huh? She's the reason you're leaving me after a good 5 years together right? She's the reason! God why am i so stupid, why didn't i put 2 and 2 together.. The accusing of me cheating, the texts you got from her then the arguing. Wow.. I should of knew it."
He looks at me coldly and angrily speaks "You really aren't smart y/n. I'm not seeing anyone and if you read the messages they are clearly a joke, it was Nash texting me off of Carter's new phone. It was never a girl texting me to begin with, and i told you i can't stay with you anymore because i simply don't love you anymore. I'm sorry but that's the truth." I feel dumb, i can't believe i accused him of cheating on me when he wasn't in the first place.We were both faithful to eachother, it's just he doesn't love me anymore. I have to respect his choice to leave me, i have to be strong as hard as i don't want to let him go i have to. I take a good hard look at him one more time and make eye contact with him as I speak sadly "I'm sorry for assuming and accusing you of cheating on me Matt. I should of knew you wouldn't do that because you're an amazing guy. You wouldn't have the guts to do that to a girl, you have enough respect to let her go if you wanted someone else. I assumed the worst and now that i know the truth i apologize for assuming and accusing you. I have to respect your decision to walk out of my life, i wish you the best in life Matt. I'll always love you."
I feel more tears fall down my cheeks and start to walk back into the house but what i hear him say makes me lose my breath and I feel like im going to pass out "You're just another ex.". I hear him get into his car and back out of the driveway. As i turn around i see him drive away, i mumble "assshole" as i walk back into the house.
It's been three months since i last seen or heard from Matt. I'm 3 months pregnant, it's his child. I haven't moved on and I don't think i ever will. I found out after a month he had left that i was pregnant, the night we had the argument and he said he was going to make it up to me.. He did and now im pregnant.
I consider this baby a blessing, it was made out of love. It's going to be hard to look at the baby everyday and see the features of Matt on him or her. But since Matt and I haven't spoke i've been strong for the sake of my child. As i look at myself everyday in the mirror i see my bump protruding more and more. You can tell im pregnant, it's not a big bump nor a small one either.
One day Matt will wake up realize the woman that made him happy and gave him the love he truly deserved that he had lost her and was never going to get her back nor have a chance to be a father. We used to talk about what the future would look like for us, he wanted children around the age of 24 or 25. He won't ever get a chance to become one with the woman he once had as a blessing. He messed up big time and soon karma will bite him in the ass.
Besides that i need some food in my system, grocery shopping has to be done. Guess it's time to get some groceries. I lock the house up and make my way to my car and drive to the grocery store, i arrive and start shopping. As im shopping i get a cold shiver down my spine and feel the hairs on my body stand up instantly. I shrug it off and lick my lips and think of what to make for dinner tonight.
As i walk down the pasta isle my carriage hits into someone else's, as i look up i am staring into the eyes of the person i fell inlove with. I grab my carriage and walk out of the isle but as i try to make my way out of there he says my name, i feel tears spring to my eyes. I take a deep breath and turn around to look at him "Wow.. You look beautiful y/n. You've always been beautiful."
I blush and look down but give myself a little pep talk and tell myself not to let my guard down. I look up and watch him slowly check me out, his eyes land on my stomach.. I feel nervous and fix my northface and zip it up. His eyes finally meet mine and he asks the question i wish he wouldn't have, it's clearly obvious im pregnant so of course he would ask me that question."You're pregnant? Wow.. So where is he?".
I look at him confused and then it clicks, he's talking about the father of my child. I look down and lick my lips then look back up at him and take a deep breath while speaking "Him and I aren't togther at the moment. Haven't been for a while. I'm single." He nods as he looks stunned and asks me a question that makes my blood run cold in my body. "So it was a one night stand?."
I feel the nerve to smack the taste out of his mouth as he looks at me, i feel ashamed of myself to even love this fool. I angrily speak "Actually no it wasn't. He had left me after us being together for 5 years. So you assumed wrong dumbass." I grab my carriage and make my way down the isle and feel stupid. I just basically told him he's the father.. Why am i so stupid? He's going to add it all up.. I hear someone running and im turned around quickly.
"I'm the father? I'm a dad. Wow.. This is crazy." Matt speaks looking a little flushed but as he speaks a big smile appears on his face. "Y/N i regret ever leaving you. I messed up and shouldn't of left you. I just needed sometime to think about us.. I was going to call you a week after i left but i knew you'd decline my call or even worse change your number. I ended up calling you a month after and it said it was disconnected. You had changed your number, i wanted us to fix our problems. This has got to be a sign for us to be together once again. I messed up, please forgive me and we can talk this all out. We can talk at my apartment, please y/n?."
He takes a deep breath and looks nervous, i decide on letting us talk it out. I nod and he smiles and looks happy. As i take a good hard look at him i see there are some bags under his eyes and his hair has grown out a bit. He looks a bit muscular too, i lick my lips in approval of how good he looks but sad at the same time for him looking stressed. It's been hell for the both of us, we're helpless without eachother.
Eventually we leave to his place and talk, after a few hours of being around him i feel like its old times and decide to let us have another shot. We can pull through, we were strong before and i think and know we'll be stronger than ever now.
Everything that was said and done three months ago is now the past. We're leaving it in the past and moving on. Now it's time to live in the present and focus on the future.

At the end of the day, we had made a mistake letting our relationship fall apart and seeing eachother again had gave us a wake up call. We are meant to be, even though he had thought leaving was the best choice for us it wasn't.. "I'm leaving you." those words broke my heart..

But now we're back together, happier than ever. Though those words had hurt me, but it's not healthy to relive the past. Now it's our time to be happy again and become stronger than ever.

Just remember "I'm leaving you.." being said from the one person you're inlove with they'll come back if they regret saying those words and if they truly love you. Matt came back... I guess "I'm leaving you.." was just a bunch of words with no meaning.

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I hope you enjoyed that imagine. Many more to come (: