Transfer Student | | Kenma Kozume

-Chapter 17-

2 years later

(Y/N) POV)

My dad had cancer for 5 years and he did not tell me. The day that I was suppose to go to my volleyball match. That day when my father did not wake up from his bed will stay with me for the rest of my life.

When I had found out that my father was not breathing, I freaked out, like how almost anyone would. I didn't know what to do.

We were going to go to my game. We were going to be happy. You were going to see me play for the first time in a long time. So why did you have to go.

Im sorry dad. I'm sorry that I wasn't happy with the money that you mad. I'm sorry that I wasn't a good daughter. I'm sorry that I'm an ungrateful bitch.

My friends, Kenma and Kuroo, are trying their best to tell me everything is alright. But they're wrong. Nothing is alright. They don't get it.

I haven't seen them for a while now. Last year I finished my 3rd year in high school and I went off to university. You ask how? My best friend, (Bestfriend/N).

She did not know exactly what had happened to my dad until I just told her a few days ago. I just told her that since we finished our third year in high school I needed help to pay my university tuition. When she asked why my father had not payed at least a little bit of the tuition I just told her nothing or changed the subject.

I could not do this for anymore longer so I told her the real reason. I kinda regret it and I don't at the same time. The reason why is because she always treats me like she can't trust me or something. But I'm grateful for that at the same time because I know that I have someone who I care about care about me to.

As much as I don't want to admit it, I miss Kenma and Kuroo dearly. They were like brothers to me. I loved them. I loved Kenma. I wish that those feelings would just go away. I wish I just forgot about Kenma. I wish that he would just-

"(Y/N)? Your daydreaming again." (Bestfriend/N) said.

I let her come over to my house since she was always worried about me 24/7 because she thought that I would cut myself once or twice.

And I admit, I do have thoughts about ending it all because of the pain of not having someone greet me and ask me how my day was at school when I walk through the door of my house.

But now I have (Bestfriend/N) to comfort me when I feel like no one is there. When I start to doubt myself she is there for me.

I have gotten better at not breaking down at random times from how much I miss him.

(Bestfriend/N) is not the only person who comforts me when I break down or just feel down, also my brother and sister come over to my dorms where I go to college to see how I am doing.

I really appreciate everyone how they care about me, I really do.

I have told (Bestfriend/n) about Kuroo and Kenma and how I really liked Kenma. It turned out that Kuroo and her had been childhood friends and they just went to different high schools.

She one day asked me if it was okay if we go see them. I of course said yes because I miss them. She called Kuroo and asked if it was okay if they could go over and he said yes. So that's where we are going soon.

-A/N-
I'm really sorry that I have not been posting on the said schedule that I had said a while back. I don't think that I will stick to that schedule. It's just hard to do it. Anyways, that's it, I hope you had a good day and I hope you stay safe! Wash your hands!!! Next chapter will be when they see Kuroo and Kenma!