forgotten

II.

- memories = this font
- thoughts = this font
- this chapter is kinda weak in my opinion,but it took me week to write it and edit it to this final form soo,,i hope you enjoy it !
- again,a song that gives me vibes for this fic. (all blue saraceno songs have mccree vibes,i don't make the rules).
- also on the end of the chapter is a little "blooper". i wanted to put it in like a flashback,but it was too goofy for this story so i just,,made it a separate thing.
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jesse woke up in a room he didn't recognize. his head was spinning and when he tried to sit up a pain striked trough his stomach. „thank gods you're awake. but be careful,you have to lay down jesse.“ he heard the familiar swiss accent. angela came up to him with a soft smile. „what happened angie ?“ his memories were blurry and he couldn't recall anything. angela nervously fidgeted her skirt. „you were shot. and experienced some kind of shock...or trauma.“ jesse closed his eyes and tried to calm down. he needed to remember something important. there was something important. „a-anyways...you were asleep for a while. the bullet had some poision on it so it wasn't easy to heal but you should be okay.“ finally he remembered.
gabriel reyes gabriel reyes gabriel reyes.
he got up from the bed. „jesse-“ angela tried to stop him but he rushed out of the medical corridor. he realized they were no longer in egypt. this was the base in america. he noticed tracer going somewhere. jesse ran up to her. „is 76 here?“ he needed to see him. he needed answers. tracer was a bit surprised by this question. „of course ! he's in his room love ! and how are you-“ „thanks.“ jesse left her there „- feeling?“ tracer sighed. he bursted into the room. jack was sitting on his bed and cleaning his gun.
„you knew it, right ?! you knew it !“ jesse was pissed. 76 was totally calm and took a while before he responded. „yes.“ he expected this conversation to happen sooner or later,ana told him that the sedatives will only give him 2 days to think of an answer for mccree ,and that the gunslinger will have a lot of questions.
„just...tell him the truth jack, that's all you can do. you lied to the kid for too long.“ „you don't get it ana.“ „idiot.“ she smacked the back of his head with her hand. „now don't act so edgy and tell him.“ jack appreciated ana's humour ,but he just wasn't sure about telling jesse. he never trusted that kid.
„why didn't ya' told me anythin' ?! dammit jack he was my-“ he paused „friend!“
jack sighed. „jesse some things..are better when they're kept as a...secret.“ he looked at the angry cowboy and tried to stay calm,but gabriel...was a sensitive topic for him as well. „secret ?! jack gabriel's alive ! i-i knew it. when ya' and amari came back. i knew he had to be alive. i HOPED he was alive !“ „jesse that's the reaper! it's not gabriel anymore ! don't you know what the reaper did to us ?! how many people he killed ?! gabriel is dead!“ the old soldier snapped. jesse looked at him in disbelief. „jack you know how much i mourned for him. me and genji-“ he looked at morrison while a new wave of anger rushed through his body. „amari knew it too didn't she ? angela,tracer, everyone else...they all knew it ,right ?!  you didn't told us because i was a blackwatch. because me and genji were in blackwatch , ain't that it ?!“ he couldn't believe that his friends lied to him. „that's why i never fought with gabriel before on the field ! ya' always made sure i couldn't fight him ! because you thought when i'll find out i'll follow him ! that i would screw y'all and join talon,is that it ?!“ jesse was furious. he felt anger mixed with sadness. the people he trusted..his new family was still judging him by his past. „jack i knew you were sceptical about me ,because i was a criminal ! but i thought ya' trusted me ! i thought we were friends !“ jesse wasn't angry anymore. he was desperate. 76 remained silent after this.
jesse starred at him for a moment and then stormed out of the room. jack knew he fucked up. he failed mccree and was angry at himself for not telling him,but he wanted what was best for the team. a little voice inside him told him,that he already did the exact opposite of best.
he wasn't sure if he should chase after jesse and apologize,but he decided not to.
after all,he never trusted that man.