Still Remembering

CH. 6:

It was the Christmas break. I sat alone in my house watching the snow fall out my back window and sighed contently. Tyson and I were pretty much back to normal, acting like nothing had ever happened like no time had passed. Jessi and I had eventually met the whole team and we all got along great, they were extremely funny and sweet guys. Other than Tyson I was definetely closest with his roomates since I saw them the most, Nathan had become a protective older brother of sorts and JT had become one of my best friends. Speaking of JT..
  "Helloooooooo." he yelled walking into my house causing me to jump.
  "What the hellllll you could have at least texted me and told me you were coming." I slapped his chest lightly.
  "Then whats the point of the key?"
  "For emergencies." I rolled my eyes and went to the kitchen to make some hot chocolate. Just about everyone on the team had gone home for the break, even Jessi had flown to New York to see her parents. I had invited the 3 guys that had stayed over for movies and hot chocolate and christmas cookie making, which was something I had done every Christmas since I was 2, used to be with my family but since I had been away from home it was whatever friends happened to be around that year.
  "When will the other 2 be here?" JT asked as he followed me in the kitchen, his eyes widening when he saw all the cookie ingredients all over the island.
  "Frankie said he was on his way, Gravy said he'd be here around 2." he nodded and went to the fridge, which was stuffed since the boys were supposed to stay until Christmas night and feeding 3 hockey players was no cheap task, to grab the milk for me. I was making my famous hot chocolate that would stay in the crock pot so it would always be hot.
  "Oh my Goddddd. I am so full." I groaned 4 hours later when we had made and ate a ton of cookies, drank way too much hot chocolate and were sitting on the couch trying to decide which Christmas movie we were gonna watch.
  "Please nobody tell Nate how many cookies we had. He would literally kill us." Gravy said throwing his head back against the back of my couch and I laughed. Nate was fairly strict with his teammates diets it was hilarious that they were all scared of him. We finally settled on 'How the Grinch Stole Christmas' with Jim Carrey which was my favorite. I sang along with Cindy Lou Who when she sang 'Where Are You Christmas' and looked up to notice all 3 boys staring at me when it ended.
  "What?"
  "How come you never told us you could sing that good?" JT asked mouth gaping open. I shrugged.
  "I don't think I sing that good."
  "You sing SO good." Frankie said and I laughed.
  "We need to have a karaoke night for sure." JT said as he scooted down so he could lay down and lay his head in my lap. He cleared his throat and pointed to his hair. I rolled my eyes and started playing with his hair while I watched the rest of the movie. We were on our second movie and JT was asleep on my lap and Gravy and Frankie were asleep on the other couches when my phone rang with a facetime with Tyson.
  "Hey Ty." I whispered when I answered.
  "Why are you whispering?" I turned the camera and showed him the boys sleeping in my living room. I smirked as I turned the camera back to my face and caught a look on Tyson's face that I couldn't figure out what it was but it didn't look happy.
  "How's Christmas with the fam?" I asked trying to change the subject and get that look off his face.
  "Uh, its okay. Sad I'm missing your Christmas cookie marathon and such though.''
  "Maybe we'll do another one when you get home. The boys ate way too many cookies and are terrified Nate is gonna find out." I giggled causing JT to stir a little bit. I was glad to see Tyson smile at that. We talked for a little bit longer before his sister called him down for dinner.
  "Well I gotta go, I'm flying home on the 26th." I nodded.
  "You want me to come over when you get home."
  "I can come there if you want."
  "Okay. Talk to you later Ty."
  "Bye Jana." I saw a sad look on his face before he hung up but shrugged it off. At about midnight I got tired and tried pushing JT's head off my lap so I could go to bed, but he woke up.
  "I'm going to bed," I laughed at his confused face and messy hair. "you can go back to sleep. I'll go grab you guys blankets." I got up and headed to the closet at the end of the hallway and grabbed 3 blankets and walked back to the living room. JT was still sitting up.
  "Can I sleep in your room? They snore."
  "They really do, couldn't even hear the last movie. Yeah you can." I covered up the other boys before heading to my room with JT following me. My room was huge and I had a little sitting area with a couch on one side in front of a fireplace, and then my bed was on the other side next to a big panoramic window that you could see the mountains out of. My favorite view of the house, especially in winter when it was snowing. JT grabbed the third blanket from my hand, kissed my forehead and walked over to the couch and fell asleep before I could even change into my pajamas. I laughed when I walked out of the bathroom. I climbed in bed and stared out the window for a few minutes before falling asleep. I woke up with a jolt to see JT standing next to the bed with his hand on my shoulder. My breaths were coming out too quickly and I was drenched in sweat.
  "You were screaming. I've been trying to wake you up for like 10 minutes." he explained, his eyes soft with worry.
  "Bad dream." I sighed. I got up and walked into my bathroom and started the shower, knowing that if I went right back to sleep I would end up in the same nightmare and I didn't want that. Once I was done in the shower and had calmed down a bit I threw on some underwear and a long Tshirt before walking back into my room and saw JT sitting on the couch.
  "You could have gone back to sleep." I said giving him a hug, noticing how much calmer I felt.
  "I wanted to make sure you were okay." he said into the crook of my neck before walking me back to my bed and pulling the covers back. I climbed in and looked at him with sad eyes.
  "Can you sleep next to me? I feel calmer around you." I said blushing. I didn't like admitting a weakness. JT nodded and pulled the covers back before climbing into bed with me and pulling me back against him.
  "Wanna tell me about it?" he asked and I squeezed my eyes shut and sighed.
  "I've had the same dream since I was like 11. I don't have it all the time, in fact it's been a few years since I had one at all. It's just terrifying and I usually have to shower or something after otherwise I will go back to the same dream, and its always harder to wake up from it the second time. The couple of times I tried going back to sleep without a shower I woke up in a full blown panic attack that lasted forever. The last time I did that was the last sleepover me and Tyson ever had before I left. He used to be really good at helping me after I had them. Jessi too when I lived with her when I first moved here. I'm glad you're here. " he kissed the back of my head and his arms tightened around my stomach.
  "Glad I could help. Go back to sleep, I'm here if you need me." and I did.