The Cursed House

I Just Can't...

** This chapter is a bit depressing. Just want to warn you. +
Flashbacks, daydreams and thoughts included. Don't get confused.**

Eric's Point of view

Penny was still sleeping. I was sad. Again. I went downstairs to my "alone room". I went there every time I wanted to be alone. It was a pale white room and it was almost empty. I just set there. It was the only place I felt safe.

I had a knife in there. Yesterday, I started cutting myself. I couldn't handle this. It was too much. Everyday I faked a smile, just to make Penny happy. I didn't want her to know this. Not yet. She would thought that I just gone crazy. She was the only friend I had right now.

Everyday I added a new cut. It hurt, but only that way I felt better somehow. I started crying.

{ I'm sorry. I can't... No I can do this! We will escape! But what if we don't? Weird things are going to happen again. This is too much for me to handle... }

Suddenly I heard footsteps. Than I heard Penny screaming : "Eric?! Where are you?" I didn't answer her. Than the door of the "alone room" started opening. It was Penny. "Eric! Why are you here?!" she asked me. I was weak from cutting and I didn't answer her. "Why do you have a knife? What were you doing?!" she yelled at me. Than she saw my arm. It was bloody and it had cuts all over it. "Why? Why Eric?!" she was sad. Her eyes were tearing up.

"I just... I can't do this anymore..." I said to her. I picked up that knife again. "No!" she yelled at me and she took my knife. "Just leave me alone!" I yelled at her. I tried to took the knife back, but she didn't want to let go of it. Suddenly I cut her hand and I got my knife back.

She started sobbing. There was blood coming from her hand. "Penny... I'm so sor..." My sentence was interrupted with a slap. Penny slapped me. I fell on the ground. "You jerk! What's wrong with you?!" she started crying again.

{ I looked at her teary eyes. They were shining like diamonds. "It's time..." A voice said in my head. "Kill yourself!" It yelled. }

I looked at Penny. She looked away. She was scared of me. I was a monster in her eyes. Than I looked at the knife.

"I'm losing my mind, Penny. Until now, I just kept quiet and I faked a smile. For you. But I can't live like this anymore." I said to Penny. I started sobbing. "No... This is not you Eric! Wake up!" she yelled at me again. "I'm wide awake. It bothered me for a long time now." I didn't want to continue.

{ This was one month ago. I was at my therapist's house. He said : "What is bothering you Eric? You can tell me." His voice was calm. "I hate my life. I was broken by so many people and so many times. I can't fake this smile anymore." I said and dropped my faked smile. "When me and my family were on a trip to America, we visited a very high mountain. When we reached the top, I thought : Why don't I just jump? Nobody would miss me. I would disappear from this cruel world. I would be free..." "Why didn't you jump?" he asked me again. }

I held my knife right next to my neck. "I can end this now..." I said. "I can join my mom... In haven..." I whispered. Suddenly I remembered my mom. I started crying.

"No..." Penny started crying. But she didn't try to stop me.

"Goodbye..." I said. I realized I was crying. My tears were all over my face. I pushed the knife through my neck. It hurt for a second and after that...

I was free.

{ I'm sorry Penny. }

** Hope you liked this chapter. It was a bit disturbing and it was a little different from the other chapters. We discovered that Eric was not happy with his life and he had his problems. He acted like he was okay but deep inside he was broken all the time.

The next chapter will be up on Friday. :)
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