Hello my friends.
Yesterday I've read an another book about AUM. I thought AUM is famous worldwide but it isn't so I'm surprised. So this topic is too domestic... but important for me.
It was 25 years ago and I was 20 years old. I was an college student and learning English literature at Waseda. A terrible cult named AUM spread sarin (a kind of poisonous gas) in subway in Tokyo. They thought that is an act for save people from this bad world.
After all their crimes were opened and everything became end... I thought like that until nowadays. But now I'm interested in their action and my history. I'm thinking "Why I didn't join in them and spread sarin?". Silly question? Probably. But it's serious question for me.
In Japan we experienced terrible damage economically and we lost the purpose of living. What is to trust? What is love? I can't answer. Apathy went through our society and I thought "I can't trust anything! Just I trust the decision I make. But I am human so I make mistakes often. What should I do?"
I lost my purpose of life. I experienced bad era and lost my chance of getting good job. But I have to work. So I worked but drunk a lot of alcohol. I was a dead man. I had no hopes and no futures.
But I didn't join any cults. I love this world. Yes this world is dirty. People has desires and politicians have no views of future. But I love people. So I decided to live this real life and find the truth.
How do you think? Today's story is probably difficult. You know my English is not perfect, but going on to make progress. Someday I tell you about AUM as perfect book or article. So if you are interested in, google this please.
Yours.
