Troyler

CH. 14

TYLER'S POV

 

Zoe leaves and I am happy that now it is just Troye and I that are sitting here together on my couch. It's been five minutes since Zoe left and neither of us have spoken a word to each other since she left. When we hugged earlier I thought that the awkwardness was gone, but it's not. I sigh hoping that it will cause Troye to speak up, I want to talk about what happened earlier with him, but I don't want to bring it up what if he really doesn't want to talk about it.

He pauses, not knowing what to say before he speaks up. "Do you want to talk about it Tyler?"

"If you'll listen, sure I'll share what happened."

"Of course Tilly, go for it." He says this with a smile, probably trying to make me fee better.

"Korey kissed me." I say, suddenly very nervous to be having this discussion with Troye since we had just discussed our feelings for each other. What if he gets mad and thinks that I tried to kiss him.

"What do you mean, he just kissed you?" He asks very questioningly, clearly wanting to know more than the three words I had just told him.

"Yeah, he got all up on my lap, I told him to get off and that I didn't want to do that with him. And then he kissed me."

Troye looks down at the ground, I don't think he knows what to say next. "What does this mean for you and Korey?"

He asks me a question that I was not prepared for, I try to come up with an answer. "I honestly don't know. He wanted me to tell him about everything that happened last night. We only got so far before he made a move on me."

Troye stayed looking at the floor, nervous to say what he was going to say next. "But you don't have feelings for him. Do you?" Troye said with a pause in between his sentences, hoping to be reminded of my feelings for him.

"Troye no, remember what happened last night?"

"I know." He replies in a monotone voice.

"Can I ask you a question and you be 100% honest with me?"

"Sure." His eyes looking up into mine for the first time since Zoe left. He looks so nervous, like I'm going to make him confess something that is super embarrassing.

"We were honest with each other last night right?"

"Yeah"

"If you meant everything that you said last night," I know that I shouldn't ask him this right now, but I won't see him much the next few days, I will be busy at vidcon and then he has to go back to Australia and shoot the video for happy little pill. I can''t wait until the next time i see him for answers, I need to know now. "then why can't we be together?"

Troye sighs and leans against the back of my couch, he closes his eyes and takes a deep breath before he speaks up. "Honestly Ty, I don't know how I feel, I always over-think everything, being with you could have a lot of problems."

"Like what? What are you thinking about Troye?"

"Distance, is a big part of it. You're such a wonderful friend, what if something happened to our relationship and we weren't friends anymore."

"Troye, I have those same worries. It scares the crap out of me, the thought of losing you. Telling you how I honestly feel was such a big step for me. I would risk our whole relationship as friends right now to be with you. Isn't that what relationships are? Risk?"

"Yeah Tyler, you're right."

Tyler pauses before he says the six words that I was not expecting. "What does this mean for us?"

A/N

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