I don't think I've shed a tear
in what soon is to be a year
I haven't been truly sad
although things have been absolutely mad
A war between love and hate
impulses or fate
Breakups in plural
living isolated and rural
Eating disorders
mental and emotional borders
Weekly visits in the psychiatry
counting every calorie
Finding a safe space
building this new place
Tearing it all down
going drunk into town
Living my messy life
being nobody's wannabe wife
Desperate for attention
loving this tension
Bruises and marks
not-so-secret photos in the dark
Short stories and poetry
people have noticed me
But don't you worry
I'm not in a hurry
'Cause I know what's going on
the rest is just artistic freedom
This shit needs to rhyme
I suppose that's no crime?
So even though life is rough
it seems to me I'm pretty tough
Or so I like to think
maybe I'd just need a drink
For my thoughts to show
and my tears to flow
Either way, I haven't cried over you
and I hope you didn't too
28/3-2020
