I'm sorry. This is a vent. Not a part of the story...
I don't know what to do. I'm not sure what I should be feeling right now. So many things are happening and I just keep putting off thinking about them because there is always something I need to do. I am always doing something, but at the same time, nothing gets done. I don't know how to go about this. Everything feels meaningless. Eating is so pointless that I don't even have an appetite anymore. I've thought about cutting to feel better... or just to feel something, but I still feel nothing. Is life supposed to be this meaningless. This... awful?
I can't... do this anymore. Fuckk. I WANT TO KILL MYSELF. LIVING IS SO FUCKING POINTLESS. ... I am so worthless for feeling this way. I hate myself. I haven't told myself that in so long, but I hate myself. I never deserved this life. I wish I never existed... I just want a way to stop the pain...
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I'm sorry.. I don't know how to keep going guys... I don't think there would really.. be any point. Death seems more appealing with every passing second. I can't stop thinking about all the different ways... I ... feel... kind of sick.
I'm sorry this isnt the update you guys wanted ... I just really cant focus on the next chapter right now..my head.. isnt working. im sorry...

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What No One Sees
FanfictionLeo smiles. He laughs. He jokes. But no one sees how much hurt he is going though. How much pain he has stored up inside. How close he is to breaking. They don't see that he already broke.