Too All The Boys Ived Loved Before: Part 4

Chapter 13(Moving In)

                       I'll waiting for Peter to come back with all his stuff so he can move in. He said he didn't have much so he wouldn't be too long. I'm nervous for him moving but also a little excited because it's a step closer for us to be a family. I don't want to jump into things with him yet but as long as Thea loves him everything is okay and she adores him so we really don't have a problem. She's definitely a daddy's girl. Daddy and Margot weren't ecstatic about him moving in but they said they trusted me to make the right decision. Soon Peter was back with his clothes, backpack and lacrosse stuff and that was it, I showed him to the guest room and showed him around the house. I lived in a middle class house with 4 Rooms- 4 showers and lots of land. The neighborhood was nice and and neighbors were friendly. I never really talked too any of them. Peter was amazed on how big the house was but it was more than enough room for the 3 of us. Once he got settled in I made dinner. It was chicken Alfredo with broccoli. Thea couldn't eat anything yet so I just breast fed her. Once dinner was done Peter washed the dishes and I put Thea down for a nap. After I put Thea down for a nap I walked into the kitchen and Peter asked if we could talk. So I sat down at the table with him and he looked nervous for some reason. " Lara Jean I know you said it's going to take time for us to be how we once were or to even be together but I just need you too know I do want to be with you. I want to be a family with us three. I want to be able to sleep in the same bed as you and get up in the morning to kiss you and Thea. Or to go out and go to the park and go get lunch. To go on family vacations and see Thea take her first steps. I want more Lara Jean I want to be an actual family. I can wait but I just needed you to know truly how I felt." and before I know it I'm kissing him back he seems surprised at first but kisses me back. I've missed this I've missed him. His touch and his soft lips and the way he makes me feels safe. Then I realize what I'm doing and immediately pull away. No no no what did I just do? Of course I want him and to be a family but he hurt me and left us and I'm so afraid he'll leave us again. I didn't even know till Peter walked over and asked what wrong that tears were streaming down my face. "Covey hey it's okay" I decided I need to tell him how I truly feel too" "No Peter it's not I want you too. I want a family. I want to sleep in the same bed and be a family and go out and do family things but I don't trust you anymore. You left! You left Us and just walked away for a Year and then you came back and I just let you right in and my family even forgave you. At first I thought this was gonna be okay we would be okay because I see how you look at Thea and how you want to protect her and sometimes how you just stare at me but I'm so scared you leave again and it will be the same heartbreak again!" and at this point I'm balling and Peter looks heartbroken with watery eyes and it looks like he's crying too. " Lara Jean I understand how you feel and I'm so sorry I ever made you feel that way and I'll never ever forgive myself for what I done but I promise you I will never ever leave you or Thea again okay? It's gonna be scary but if we try we can do it we can be a family. I just need you to say we can try." Peter says that with hope and I want it so bad. I believe Peter and I trust him more than I did before. We can do this I can do this. Thea will have a family an actual family and that's all that matters to me is that Thea is happy. "Okay Peter I trust you" and with that he lifts me up and swings me around. We kiss passionately and I realize this is what I want,this is all I want Thea and Peter. That's all I need to be complete.