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Girls

The boys had all left for the studio and would be gone all day so the girls and I had a girlie day planned. We started the day with coffee, crumpets and fruit, courtesy of Yoongi, who was being a real sweetheart. As we sat on Yoongi's bed eating breakfast I was filling the girls in on the eventful evening.

Lise: So... Kookie followed you down to the room?

Me: Yeah and I punched him a lot

Lise: Does your hand hurt?

Me: Yeah it does

Justine: You didn't fuck him?

Me: Technically, no... he fucked me

Lise: I knew it!

Justine: We told you!

Me: I know you did.

Lise: Details?

Me: There isn't any really. He literally fucked me into next week... I swear that I can still feel it. It's the most angry, greedy fuck I've ever had. Afterwards, he held me and stroked my head while I cried and we fell asleep.

Justine: You cried because he hurt you?

Me: No, no, no. I cried because of Tae. Kookie didn't hurt me... well not in a bad pain sort of way.

Lise: But things are okay with Tae now?

Me: More than okay!

Lise: When did that happen?

Me: I woke up at 4am and needed to see him. It was strange waking up in Kooks arms and he really is amazing but he isn't Tae. If I couldn't have Tae then I didn't want anyone and so I stole Kooks entry card and went to talk to Tae.

Justine: Wow! No wonder you look tired

Me: After speaking to Tae and agreeing to move forward we showered... don't look at me like that! No fucking... he washed my hair and was just really sensual. Then I had to speak to Kookie so I went back down to the room and he was still asleep. Urgh! He looked like an angel... anyway... I sat on the bed and he woke up. I think he was a bit dazed...

Me: Can we talk?

JK: What's the time?

Me: 6:50

JK: Yeah sure

Me: This isn't going to come out right but please hear me out. I have tried to bury my feelings for you but haven't done a very good job. Obviously that's resulted in situations like last night.

JK: I knew you fancied me, why bother fighting it... come here and I'll show you...

Me: Look, Kookie, what I'm trying to say that it doesn't matter how I feel about you. What matters is how I feel about Tae.

JK: But you just said...

Me: I know what I said. I fancy you! I mean, who doesn't for fuck sake?! But I want to be with Tae. He's everything to me. Last night we hurt him and it won't happen again.

JK: You know I don't like losing

Me: You haven't lost! This wasn't a competition!

JK: I don't see it like that

Me: Well, you see it how you like. You love Tae like a brother and brothers don't hurt each other, so this stops!

JK: low blow! Like I said, I don't lose

Justine: Then what happened?

Me: I gave him back his entry card and I came back up here to Tae. I heard Kookie go into his room and they all left together.