Fantaesy

All Good Things Come To An End

The next couple of days passed in a bit of a blur. The villa had a solemn mood, Jimin pretty much stayed in his room or sat on the beach staring out to sea. No one really knew what to say to him and accepted that this was something he needed to work through himself.

Lise had been staying with the security guys until she worked out what she wanted to do. She would only see Justine, Namjoon and me as she said she didn't want everyone giving their opinions while she tried to think and figure things out. Namjoon had been amazing, hadn't overcrowded Lise or told her his opinion, he simply held her while she cried and listened when she needed him to. He was also there for Jimin but made sure Jimin knew that he thought Jimin had behaved badly, he'd even gone as far as to tell Jimin that he had feelings for Lise but promised he would not be swaying her either way because that wasn't fair on anyone.

I sat down on the sofa in the security guys lounge, it was good to see Lise smiling as we spoke about things going on in the villa.

L: So the cake sank?

Me: Yep! Jin's face was hilarious.

L: Did they eat it?

Me: What do you think? Of course they did!

L: I do miss you, you know?

Me: When are you coming back?

L: That's what I need to talk to you about. I'm going home.

Me: No, Lise!

L: I can't think here. I miss Jimin so much and many times I've thought that I could forgive him for not being honest about fucking that girl but I am struggling to cope with the fact that he was texting her while we were here. I've thought back to that night he tied me up, the flight simulator, the night we dressed up and I can't move on because he had been texting someone else and acting like he wanted to be with me. Then there's Joon. I know I shouldn't have entered into anything with him, I know that technically I don't have room to comment because I was fucking Joon behind Jimin's back and I have considered telling Jimin because that is what I would need to do before we even thought about moving forward... but... if I did that... I would have to be with Jimin and Jimin only... and... I think I'm in love with Joon.

Me: Wow! Oh erm... wasn't expecting that! Lise, I'm not going to lie, it IS a mess, but is there not a way you can sort it out without leaving?

L: No because everywhere reminds me of one of them and my head is all over the place. If I choose Joon, I've got to let Jimin go completely and I know I love him. If I choose Jimin... there's so much to sort out and I feel like my heart breaks when I think about telling Joon. How did you decide?

Me: That night on the beach, my heart broke into a million pieces, but I was never in love with Kookie and the thought of losing Tae just killed me. It was not so emotionally dramatic to lose Kookie and I knew that in time we could be friends. The other way around? I'd be going home because I knew I could never ever be just friends with Tae.

L: So you understand why I have to go home then.

Me: When you put it like that... yeah I do.

L: Gonna help me pack?

Me: Now?

L: Yes. I go tonight.

Helping Lise pack her bags was tough and my heart was heavy even though I knew it was the right thing to do. We'd managed to get into her room unseen which for now was a good thing. I'd sent a text to Justine and she helped too. Once she was packed, she just needed to speak to everyone, two guys in particular, so we carried her case downstairs and went outside.