Fantaesy

Jane's Decision

I knocked on Jungkook's door and was greeted with a cheerful 'Come in'.

Me: Hey, how are you?

Jungkook walked out of the bathroom in just a towel and I quickly diverted my eyes from his gorgeously toned, wet, stunning body.

Me: You could've said you weren't decent.

JK: Where's the fun in that?

Me: How are you? The hand?

JK: It's tender but I'm ok.

Me: Well that's really good, I'll leave you to it.

JK: Don't you want to know what time we are leaving?

Me: What?

JK: Our date?

Me: Today?

JK: No time like the present.

Me: But... now?

JK: Well not right now.

Me: What time then? And where are we going?

JK: We leave in an hour, bring a swimming costume and a change of clothes.

Me: Really?

JK: Yes... and bring a smile!

I went to my room and Tae was still in bed. He pulled the duvet back when I walked in and approached the bed. I went over to Tae's side and he shifted backwards so I could sit.

Tae: What's up?

Me: I went to see how Kookie's hand is, expecting him to be a bit worse for wear and he was far from that!

Tae: Okay so why's that a problem?

Me: Because he told me he's taking me on the date today... in an hour, in fact.

Tae: Oh. How do you feel about that?

Me: Weird, Tae. Do I want to go? No. But I'm fed up of talking about it. I'm fed up of the whole thing. It feels like my feelings for you are constantly questioned because of Kookie and that doesn't feel very nice.

Tae: So don't go?

Me: I can't do that now or it means every conversation we've had these past few days is also pointless.

Tae: You being upset worries me.

Me: I'm upset because I feel like my whole life depends on this date. I have only agreed to this date on the condition that he stops all the games after this. That he drops everything and do you know what his response was? That I'd better make sure I tell you the condition as you'll need to do the same when you are rejected.

Tae: Well, I agree then.

Me: Oh my God!!

Tae: What? Whatever I say is the wrong thing. What are you scared of?

Me: I'm scared that he's right.

Tae: About you wanting him?

Me: Yes. I'm scared because it means my feelings for you aren't what I think they are and that's scary. I'm scared because you are the last person on this planet that I would want to hurt but I know that after today I won't be able to be anything other than truthful. I'm terrified because I know that I would rather get on a plane and go home than do anything that causes a rift between you two. And the thing that scares me the most is that at no point have you told me you don't want me to go.

My heart sank, my stomach flipped and the nausea rose in my throat as the tears I'd been holding in finally fell. I knew deep down that going on a date with Jungkook was the right thing to do for so many reasons but the reality that I could actually feel for him what I felt for Taehyung was too much to bear.