Depth

An anomaly

Eyes with depth so deep, that staring in them is like drowning,hungry for air .
Mesmerising windows of the soul...
A gaze that engulfs me with burning desire,
a  desire so primal with a forgotten exisistence.
 A Gaze that can comfort by an encircling  a blanket of security like no other can but at the same time awaken a burning passion.
The passion only two can understand.
Everytime our eyes meet  ,
"mine"
echoes through the crevices of my mind.
The chains of belonging tightens its grip around my core  ,pulling me closer to you.
The hollow at the corner of your eye with a little ledge continues to your nose .
Its the ledge, I stand on everytime conflicts arise ,misunderstandimg clouds judgement.
Soft lips around a lit cigrates  in the dark ,swaying.
A Clouds of smoke .
Your not perfect but so perfect  .
Surrounded by admirers much more suited ,a better match.
Beauty ,brains and spirit .
Dancing around as a tribe around a bonfires.
Ready with honey and grapes ,waiting for the right time ,what a catch it seems.
A list of potentials but stuck with me .
A bit confused ,a bit closed ,a extrovertedly introvert with a wall around as a protection from the pain.
Are you really happy with your choice ?
Or your protecting my heart?
No  golden  garden for us to dance in ,or privaleges of privacy but still you want to stay?
Are you really sure?
Do you understand  that boundaries are set ?
Boundless with  her .
Carefree with her .
Freedom with her .
Memories with her .
Passion with them.
How can you forget shared  memories?
Entrap them ,understood.
But forget them...I think not
Already exsisting firsts ..a list of firsts and lasts.
All these roller coaster feelings ,where can I put them I wonder ...
Love and pain seem as soul sisters ,hand in hand they waltz along the canvas of my soul.  
But even with the pain  loving you is a privillage ,I just can not share...