Not My Fault (Edited)

Chapter twenty-five

Third pov:
Once dinner was finished, Namjoon gave his kids a quick bath, that involved a lot of splashing and making shapes out the bubbles. "Wook Lil'! Me Santa!!" The little girl laughed, putting bubbles on her head, "TeaTea!! Me Ice cweam!!" They awed when their mother poured a cup of water in their head, "It's late kids, mama has to bathe as well."
Namjoon got his kids dried and dressed, then took a quick shower for himself, while Jin tucked them into bed.
Jin kisses his kids goodnight, stopping when he heard his sons voice calling for him, he turned to face his son. "Yes Tae?" The little boy sat up in bed, which he shares with his sister, Jin did have two beds in the room for his kids, but they chose to share the one. Which the two parents found adorable, Namjoon took a picture from the first night they began doing it.
"Why mama sad?" Jins face twisted and he tilt his head in confusion, "What do mean bud?" He stepped back over to his son, sitting on the edge of the bed. Taehyung fiddled the blanket, "Mama almost cry at dinnor, why?" Jin felt his chest tighten, not liking the thought of his lover being upset, especially sense it was because of him. "I'll talk to mama, ok bud?" Seeing his son nod, eyes glossing over, Jin pulled his son into a tight hug, rubbing his back. "Don't cry Tae, Mama is the strongest person I know, he'll be ok," Trying to reassure his son in a calm manner. Taehyung sniffled, "But-but... for how wong?" That question hit Jin like a bullet to the chest, how long can Namjoon remain strong? How long can he hide behind his mask before he actually breaks?
Jin tightened the hug, kissing his sons head, "Don't know buddy, but I will do my best to help him, ok?" Lily crawled to her brother and embraced him from behind, "No worry TeaTea, papa swave mama," Taehyung sniffled and nod, turning to hug his sister. Jin smiled at the sight, "Alright, now go to sleep buggers, unless you two don't want me to take you to the zoo tomorrow?" He chuckled when he saw their frantic nods, curling up under the covers and going to sleep. Hun kissed their heads one more time before heading out of their room, making sure to leave the door open ajar.

Jin changed into his pajamas, which were only a pair of black sweatpants and boxers, sitting on the edge of the bed, waiting for the younger to come out of the bathroom. Soon getting lost from his own thoughts, unconsciously fiddling with the ring on his finger.
Namjoon stood in front of the mirror of the bathroom, looking at his side profile, gracing his hand over his small bump. "How in the world did I miss this?" He whispered in a low voice, sighing and grabbing his night shirt, slipping it on, it was so baggy that he couldn't see his little bump anymore. He slipped on his underwear, brushed his teeth, before heading out of the bathroom.

Jin heard the door open, breaking him from his own world, gazing at the bathroom door and seeing Namjoon standing in the door way, drying his hair with the towel. Jin sighed, resting his elbows on his knees while rubbing his face, "I honestly thought you forgot about that argument by now."
Namjoon paused his actions and gazed at the elder in disbelief, how could he forget about such an argument. He tossed the towel in the laundry bin, standing by the bathroom door, listening to the elder speak. "Look, Namjoon, why don't we have a another baby after we marry, we can find a bigger house, with more rooms and a bigger backyard. Right now isn't the right time, I mean this house is too small for a big family and it takes forever to sell a house, let alone buy one, let's just wait until we're situated. Ok?" Jin finished his little explanation, he gazed up and saw the younger gazing at the floor, not saying a word. Jin sighed, feeling completely useless, "Namjoon, what's wrong? You've been acting strange lately and it's worrying me, even the kids are upset. Does it haft to do with what the doctor told you today?" Namjoon shook his head, "Not necessarily," he mumbled softly. Jin was beyond confused and worried for his lover, but he had no idea what to do to help the young male.
Namjoon crosses his arms and leaned against the doorway of the bathroom, biting the inside of his cheek, having a mental battle in his head. Jin sighed again, but more heavily, "Namjoon, I don't know how to help you if you don't talk to me, and please don't ask for another baby, cause now is not-" "I'm pregnant Jin," Namjoon blurted out, his voice slightly wavy, he felt on the edge of crying, but he held it back, his lips pierced in a line. Jin shot from the bed, stepping closer to the younger, "Are you serious?" Namjoon nod, while the other shook his head in disbelief, pacing back and forth, polling on his hair. "But, I wore protection and you're on the pill!" Namjoon hushed him, putting a finger to his lips, "Please don't wake the kids Jin, I don't want them to hear us arguing." Jins hands dropped from his scalp, giving an expression of pure shock, showing the body image of an 'are you being serious' look. "But how?! Unless you poked a hole in a condom without me knowing and stopped taking the pill," He whisper shouted, beginning to talk faster and his face turning red.  Namjoon sighed, shaking his head, "Just h-hear me out Jin, about four months-" "Four months!! Four fucking months?! And you're telling me this now!?!" "Just please hear me out-" "How in the world- Namjoon!! What the hell!! You just started working at your new job!! As did I!! We don't have room for another baby!! And I made sure we would be careful about this happening!!! Unless you're cheating on me!! But how would I kno-" "KIM SEOKJIN!!!! WOULD YOU PLEASE LISTEN TO ME!!!!" Jin immediately shut up, staring at the younger with wide eyes. Namjoon took a deep breath, giving the elder a death glare, the glare that could honestly kill anyone. "I am just as shocked as you are, ok.... but it's not my fault, I fell pregnant from my last heat, condoms break and we were also both out of it, exhausted, tired, you probably even forgot to put one on. Jackson also said he's even seen this type of thing happen many times and I've researched it myself and it does....... The pill doesn't work on people like me, I don't go through the same thing women go through every month. Once I'm in heat, I'm at my most fertile and the pill does not work at all... plus, ever sense I started working at my new job, I kept forgetting to take it, so I stopped all together because it was stressing me out. The pill has to be taken everyday to have a better effect and with me being a mutt, it doesn't make much difference, because I'm bound to get pregnant somehow...." Namjoons face was now flush from anger and sadness, his blood shot eyes danced around the room, then back at the elder, shrugging and began speaking again. "I'm sorry Jin, but it happens, I am very fertile and you know this, I got pregnant the night you took my innocence for crying out loud!! And it was, what did you call it? That's right! A one night stand!!" He huffed, staring at the floor and running his fingers through his slightly damp hair, Jin couldn't speak, he could only watch the younger pace and ramble. Who then turned back to face him, Jins heart broke at the sight, of the younger now crying, eyes full rage, fear, betrayal, heartbreak, for all the promises Jin made, felt like lies to the younger. Namjoon gave Jin his everything, his trust, love, secretes, hope, care, security, respect, and mistakes, he let Jin fill the cracks in his road, repaved it and made it look new, now it's back to route one on the highway, where most mistakes happen. Namjoon cried, to the point his head ached to the core. "Oh!! Even better!!!I'm having twins!! Twins Jin!! Twins!! Are you going to leave me again?! Like what Yoongi did?! Slam the door off it's hinges on the way out too!!! But I swear to fucking god, if you step one foot out of this house, you will never see me, nor the kids, ever again!! I would walk over miles of burning coal, with the kids on my back, to make sure I'm far away from you...... This was your last chance Jin.... so go ahead.... Leave!!! You leave and I will never come to you again, not even by accident." His teary eyes locked with the elders, Jin had silent tears running down his cheeks. Namjoon shook head, "But I love you..... I love you...." He hiccuped and his face fell into his hands, sobbing.
"I-I can't even believe you would even begin think, that I would cheat on you.... After over four years of being with you.... I have been raped, beaten, verbally and sexually harassed, even the many glass bottles that were thrown at my head!! Everything!!Cannot compare to pain I feel right now.... I have never asked for anything from you, but for another baby... I-I never asked, you just did it and I followed.... because I love you and all I need is you and the kids, a family Jin, that's all I need. Money is the least of my worries, I now make enough to pay off the debt from carrying Taehyung, but at the time, I didn't care about how many dollar signs I saw because he was my first priority..... I would do the same thing all over again too, because my kids are my world...."
Namjoon sighed, rubbing his tired face, feeling emotionally drained, he originally wanted to wait on telling the elder, but they only have time alone together at night now, both work mornings and take turns taking care of the kids. Namjoon cleared his throat, running his hand over his bump, that was when Jin noticed the bump for the first time, small and hidden, but it was there.
A thick silence was stuck between them, Jin only stood there, frozen and gazing at the younger.