you are everything I wanted ( Aizawa Shota x Reader)

'18+'what happened 3 months ago(chapter 6)

the content that follows is 18+

What happened 3 months ago flashback

"Omg Hizashi... how much did we have to drink... karaoke was fun but like i am not gonna drink again for another few months at least." I said laughing and walking into my house

"I still can't believe you live here," Hizashi said stumbling over my front door steps "it's awesome"

"Haha thanks , what I don't understand is why you live so far away from UA it must take you forever to get to your work."

"I dunno, to be honest, i think i just fell in love with my apartment"

"Its the price you gotta pay I guess. Haha. anyway ill go get some sheets from the closet. You already know how to change the couch into a bed right?"

"Of course i do this isn't the first time I've stayed here," he said walking over to the couch and -pulling a small leaver that turned my already massive couch into a king-sized bed

"Here," i said handing him the pillows and blankets etc..

"Thanks" He said grabbing the stuff from me then before i could pull away he held my hand.

"Hizashi?" i said looking up at him as he staired at me. his eyes hungry.

"What do you want now," i said leaning against the wall laughing off whatever was happening

He dropped the bedding on the sofa and bent down extremely close to my face.

"y/n i have to tell you something"

"mhm?."

And before i could react Hizashi puts his hand against the wall next to my head and with the other hand he lifts up my head to look up to him as he towers over me.

What is he doing?

he kissed me.. WTF is going on! i was motionless our lips pressed together in a brutal kiss. He grabbed my hips and pulled me against his body. His body was hard as it pressed against mine. his tongue gently traced my lips and then moulded into my mouth. this was the point where i completely lost control. Its like i left my body. I did something that i shouldn't have. I kissed him back.

A groan escaped Hizashis throat as one of his hands trailed up my leg.his hands felt so hot. i released a moan as his hands got to the inside of my thigh. I gasped as he moved down to my neck. Biting, sucking, licking..... 

He pulled off his shirt in one slick motion and i saw every defining muscle in his body... he picked me up and pushed me against the wall.omg. i nibbled on his ear to stop myself from moaning as i ran my hand through his hair gently pulling as the other clawed at his bare back.

"Mmmmhhhh fuck y/n i love you"

Immediately i sprung up.... Wtf had i just done.. Oh god oh no oh NO OH NO

"NO NO NO! Hizashi what have we done!? Omg we are way too drunk to be in the same room right now... i.. We both need sleep and... a time machine"

"What i don't understand.. What happened? you.. You kissed me back."

"I know i did I'm so sorry. It just sorta happened but its okay cause I know that this was just a drunken mistake, it won't happen again. Let's just go to sleep and forget this ever happened"

"No i don't want to do that. y/n i love you, i have loved you since the first day we took that training camp together all those years ago. I will never stop loving you! i know you feel the same way"

"i... Hizashi...i don't... i don't feel the same way I'm sorry. I saw you as more of a best friend sort of person not... this. You know more about me than any other person. I have told you things that my family don't even know because i trust you to be honest and keep my secrets. You are that type of person to me not... Not in a sexual or romantic way. My alcohol just got in the way of my judgment... and for that i am so so sorry, Hizashi"

"I... no i don't believe that you don't think of me in the same way i think of you"

He lunged forward placed his hands up the back of my shirt and kissed me again. Rougher than last time.

I pushed him away on his bare chest

"HIZASHI!."

He pulled me back up against him and kissed me down my neck.

"Hizashi stop"

He immediately froze. He let go of me and took a step back.

He looked so sad. His eyes were bloodshot and it looked like he was about to cry.

But then he asked me something that i knew was gonna make me cry as soon as he left the room.

"y/n.. Why don't you love me? What did i do wrong?"

Without me being able to respond he grabbed his phone, wallet and shirt and left my house.

I looked outside my window and i saw him get in a taxi and drive away, because of my 'past' we both downloaded a tracker so we could see where each other's phones were. About 30 mins later i checked my phone and saw he was at his house. I'm glad he is safe.

I went to bed and barely slept i ended up crying myself to sleep that night... i felt like a horrible person.