on track [ hyunho au ]

[be patient with me]

[ pov: hyunjin ]

i couldn't take all these eyes on us anymore so i pulled minho away from the others. he followed me without any complaints, letting me lead him towards a bench, far away from everyone.

"hyunjin, wait, what are you doing? why did you kiss me?", minho started as i sat down on the bench, tugging on his sleeve so he'd sit next to me.

"w-why not?", i stammered, getting a little shy, "you kissed me back, why did you do that?"
minho shrugged. "because it felt nice?"

oh wow. i didn't know why i had expected him to go all soft and cheesy, answering with him realizing he had been in love with me for years through this kiss, that he had never actually wanted someone else, that it had always been me.

"hyunnie? you still there?", my best friend chuckled, pulling me out of my thoughts. "uhm yeah, hi.", i mumbled, blushing a little.
"hi.", he grinned back, pecking my lips which just made me CSHSHKSJSBEKIDB if you get me.

i took all of the courage i could find within myself. "was.. was a nice feeling the only reason for you to kiss back?"

he looked at me for a while, inspecting my eyes while i was holding my breath, scared of his answer. i loved him, i wanted to be with him more than anything and i didn't just want to feel nice to him. i wanted to be something he craves and misses twenty-four hours a day, something he really truly loved.

minho's eyes widened after staring at me for so long. "wait, did you kiss me because you have like... feelings for me or something?"

it felt like my heart had stopped beating. i wanted to be confident, say yes, declare my love for him and tell him for how long i have daydreamed about being his boyfriend.

but i couldn't.

the words just wouldn't come out, seemed to be stuck in my throat, leaving me silent.

"oh. well uhm.. i-...", minho staggered, fidgeting a little in his seat, clearly uncomfortable.

i felt my eyes tear up.
he wasn't in love with me.
minho wasn't in love with me.
or else he would've said it by now.

trying to suppress a sob i got up, my legs feeling wobbly. "no, stay please-", minho said, getting up as well and taking my hands into his. they felt warm, soft and comforting but they also hurt me, knowing this was a friendly gesture, not a romantic one.

"for how long?", he asked quietly, soothingly rubbing his thumb over the back of my hand. "t-too long.. m-maybe since seventh grade?", i stuttered quietly, voice sounding embarrassingly weak.

"hyunjinnie, no..", minho said with wide eyes, pulling me into a tight hug.
"i don't.. i mean, argh, i don't know how to say this. i feel different around you, you make me feel different. in a good way. but i never paid much attention to that feeling, just rationalizing it with a strong bond we had through our friendship. i really don't know what it is, i never considered it could be that i have feelings for you. honestly, i don't think i'm in love with you, but there definitely is something that is quite more than i'm able to put into words."

i stayed silent, carefully listening to him, letting his words cause the hope and pain in me to switch places with every phrase he formed.

"just.. give me some time, okay? you have always been my favorite person on this planet so i am willing to try things out for and with you and to learn about what my feelings towards you are. we can even go on dates and stuff! just.. be patient with me."
a warm smile was spreading across his beautiful lips, entrancing me.

"i- i don't wanna force you.", i quietly responded, "it's okay if you don't feel the same for me. if you really have feelings for yeri though then i w-want you to be with her. as much as i don't like it, it would make both of us happier than when you'd force yourself to pretend to love me."

"don't be stupid jinnie, yeri and i both never had more in mind than being fuck buddies. i can't even imagine going in full romance with her."

i gasped, staring at him. "f-fuck buddies? did you-..?" minho blushed a little, reassuring my thoughts.
"aha."

minho chuckled in embarrassment, squeezing my shoulders a bit. "don't worry, my body will be all your's now i guess."

i think my face switched to tomato-color within a second. at least it felt like it.

he smiled at me, telling me again that i wouldn't have to worry about me forcing him. he just wanted to try for me and he said there was something he felt for me and i couldn't be more happy to help him with figuring it out.

-

i heard a ringing sound as i woke up on this sunday. sleepily i reached for my phone, wanting to shut my alarm clock off but apparently my phone wasn't the thing being so noisy.

looking around confusedly and with half open eyes i realized it was the door bell, causing me to sprint downstairs. i head ordered some new clothes, maybe those would be it!!

i pulled the door open excitedly, gasping as i saw my best friend with a flower bouquet in his hand. all pastel colors, my favorites.

embarrassment was flooding through my whole body as minho checked me out, causing me to look down and realize i was only wearing boxers and a pink oversized shirt.

"uH-", i made, looking up at him again.

he smirked. "get ready. we're going on a date now."

and i sprinted upstairs as fast as i could, performing a short excitement dance which also included me squeaking before i searched through my closet for something to wear.

the end.

[ a/n: as i said an epilogue will follow, but this is the end of the story for now :). i really enjoyed writing this although it was quite short.
maybe i'll make a sequel, who knows :P.
thanks to everyone who read it and special thanks to my best friend mae <3]