I Love You

Chapter 15

The next morning I woke up from my alarm that I remembered to set before I fell asleep.  I groaned and stretched out my limbs but when it came down to my stomach and back I winced and recoiled back breathing deeply.  Still hurts.  I got out of bed and changed into a pair of Jean shorts and a black tank-top.  I grabbed a light flannel and went to get my bag to leave for school.  I didn't bother getting anything to eat because I didn't want to run into my parents.  I heard my mom start to say something but I quickly closed the front door behind me and walked to my car.  Getting in I drove to school thinking about if I was going to be able to face Katie.  "Do I have the strength to do that."  Once I parked I rested my forehead on the steering wheel, "I am avoiding my best friend for crying out loud.  What has this gone to."  Curiously I got my phone out of my pocket and saw that I did have messages from Katie.  Not sure if I want to open them though.  I thought against it and turned my phone back off and shoved it into my bag.  I walked to my first with my head down hoping that I wouldn't run into Katie, Landon, or Martin.  Sitting down at my desk I sighed and put my head down.  I could hear people walking by the open classroom door and if anything I was jealous because they were having fun and not worrying.  Or not loving their best friends.  I breathed deeply and then felt a hand on my back rubbing it.  "Okay there Violet?"  Groaning I only shook my head and looked from over my arms at Autumn.  "You haven't talked to her have you."  My eyes showed sadness so I basically didn't even need to answer.  She frowned and continued to rub my back.

After class and a lot if thinking I figured I could tell Martin and Landon what was going on.  So I went looking for them.  It took about 20 minutes before I could find them both sitting behind the school at a bench talking.  When they saw me coming they smiled and waved.  "Hey there stranger."  I looked down and said, "I'm sorry my mind has been everywhere.  But that's kind of why I came over to you guys.  Could I come over later to explain?"  They looked at each other and Martin spoke up, "My apartment at 7."  I nodded and said, "See you guys then."  They smiled and I walked away to my car since I only had one class for the day.  I looked at the dash to see the time and it was barely going to be 12pm.  What am I going to do?  You know what I need, a break.  I decided to go to a park to take a breather.  I parked and got out throwing my phone on the passenger seat.  Only holding my keys  I shut my car and locked it walking to the furthest bench from the front of the park.  The breeze felt good going through my hair and against my face.  I wonder if this is what flying feels like.  Ugh I needed this.  Taking a seat, I closed my eyes and listened to everything around me, enjoying the moment.  I opened my eyes again when I heard people laughing.  Following them with my eyes, I couldn't help but smile lightly.

The hours flew by, and after some time I ended up moving under a tree.  I had my knees to my chest, and my arms wrapped around them with my head on the top of my knees.  The breeze was cool, and I was so relaxed that my eyes wanted to close.  Okay it's time now.  From the sun setting I assumed that I had about an hour before I needed to be at Martin's.  So I stood up and made my way back to my car to drive over there. Starting my car, I made my way to Martin's.  I texted Martin that I was outside his building and was about to go, in which he said Landon was there already.  I turned off my phone and made my way up to the apartment door.  Knocking on the door, Martin opened it with a smile.  "Come on in."  Smiling, I walked in and went straight to the couch.  "Alright, shall we get started?"  Landon nodded, and Martin walked in and sat next to him.  They both sat on a love seat together across from me, looking attentively.  "Okay, so I wanted to tell you guys why I have been so MIA.  So I guess I'll start from the beginning?"  I looked up at both of them, and they nodded.  "Alright, so I started to from a crush on Kat quiet some time ago.  And over the years, it's been progressively getting bigger until now.  And a couple nights ago we went to a party that Autumn invited us to."  Looking up, I saw them smiling at what I was saying but nodding for me to continue.  "It was a frat party, and I immediately went for the drinks since Kat was the designated driver that night.  So I got wasted and danced and made out with Autumn a couple times.  I couldn't remember the rest of the night because I was pretty much blacked out drunk.  But Autumn apparently told me that I confessed my love for Katie to her and that she told me that I was going to go for it.  So now I have been avoiding her because I have been panicking that I told her I liked her more then a friend and now she doesn't want anything to do with me.  I think I ruined everything.  I think I told her." 

When I looked up both of their mouth's were open in shock.  I took a deep breath and waited for them to say something.  Landon leaned over and whispered something in Martin's ear and smirked.  Confused I raised an eyebrow and Martin waved it off.  "Well first of all that was a lot.  But, knowing Katie she won't just leave you like that.  You know she isn't like that.  I think you are freaking yourself out more then you should.  And you should know you're hurting her V."  My head drops in disappointment in myself, "I just don't want to try and talk to her and then she tells me she never wants to see me again."  I heard movement and then felt bodies on each side of me.  "It won't happen V just trust us.  But we are proud you told us.  Just please talk to her."  I'm not sure if I can to be honest.  For the sake of the conversation I just nodded.  And cleared my throat saying, "I should go it's been a long day."  They nodded and I stood up ready to leave.  "See you Thursday? At school?"  I nodded and hugged them both before leaving to go back home.  I felt so relieved to be in my own bed.  And since I got home so late I didn't have to worry about running into my parents.  I quickly fell asleep from the exhaustion of the day.  When I woke up the next morning I could immediately tell that it was around noon.  I felt like I could sleep all day though.  And that was exactly what I did for the rest of the day.  It was now Thursday morning and I was currently getting ready for class.  I still hadn't talked to Katie and it has been around a week.  I was more surprised that she didn't show up at my window like that one night.  But I was somewhat happy because I still haven't worked up the courage to even text her.  I hope today turns out good.