Open Your Mind Before Your Mouth

I Miss You

Chris' POV
December 23 2017

          I was laying on the floor in my bedroom just staring at the ceiling, I pissed off my girlfriend a few months ago and now I was just empty, I couldn't eat, I couldn't sleep, fuck, I couldn't even write a decent song to save my life.

          She had a miscarriage almost 2 years ago, and since then we've just been doing stupid little things to piss each other off, I had a relationship with someone else, before that she even tried suicide. When she came at me on the bus on the last day of Warped I knew she still felt something she was wearing the rings I gave her 7 years ago when I asked her to marry me. It has to mean something, right? She wasn't wearing them onstage when we sang together but she was shortly afterwards. And that kiss, god no one kisses like Alex, I do hope she says yes one day. She's the only person I can actually see myself growing old with. But right now she won't even talk to me. And my dumb ass had to piss her off again, it's been months since I said it, but maybe I should just go to Wisconsin and fuck her senseless.
          Maybe the nice long drive will clear my head, maybe I can give her back her guitar pick, it is special to her. I stand up and go over to my dresser. I grab the small wooden box that Alex gave me for my 18th birthday, inside it was the pick, I look at it and pocket it. "Fuck," I mutter to myself. Two hours later I'm in the car on my way to Milwaukee, Wisconsin.

          I got to Milwaukee around 2 a.m. I parked my car in front of her house. What am I doing? Well at least she's awake, there's a light on. I step up to the door prepared to knock when I can hear her inside singing.

Take a loaded gun and blow my fantasy away
Turn off the lights and shine the spotlight down on you
Well I could never understand a motherfuckin word you'd ever say

          I just stood there, it's 2 in the fucking morning, where else am I going to go? I tried the door and it was unlocked. Alex looks up at me with a tear stained face. She stands up and crosses the room until she's standing right in front of me. I want to just take her in my arms and hold her, reassure her that whatever it is it's going to be alright. Alex balls up her fist and just punches me in the face. "Get out," she chokes. "Chris just get out!" "Baby", I'm rubbing my jaw where she hit me. "You fucked her, and you expect me to be okay with that? I'm not your little doormat Chris, you can't just come back when the next best thing doesn't want you anymore." "Lexi, how many times do I have to say I'm sorry?" Alex opens the door and pushes me out." "Goodbye Chris." She slams the door in my face.

          The next day I just sit home alone. Fucking stupid! What the fuck was I thinking? That's one day I'll never get back, all it got me was a bruised jaw and an even more bruised ego. I was going to spend Christmas with my family and I knew damn well there would be questions.

The next morning I decided to go with a nice white button down and black slacks, I drew on some eyebrows and that's about it. I knocked on the door to my mom's house and my younger brother Nick answered the door. I stepped inside and went to the kitchen to see if my mother needed help with anything, she looks at me. "Christopher what happened to your face?" "Alexandria Belmont." "She's in town?" "No," I say quickly, "I went for a drive and well, I showed up at her door, I may or may not have knocked, and she kicked me out." "When are you two just gonna get married and end this stupid war you have going on?" My sister Jen asks me. "I have no clue, that's on her, I went to apologize, maybe get her to come home I don't know, and she just punched me in the face." I go into the living room and sit on the couch.

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          "And look who decided to grace us with her presence." Gabriel Belmont says as Alex walks into his living room where his wife and her step brother and step sisters are gathered around. Alex steps in behind him. "Hi," Alex says quietly. "Why didn't you tell us you were coming?," her stepbrother Bryan asks. "I thought I'd stop by before I go to prison." Alex chuckles. "Prison?," her dad asks. "I'm going to go crash a Cerulli family Christmas, kill my boyfriend and see where I end up." Alex replies sarcastically. "You have a boyfriend?" Alex's stepsister Breanna asked her suddenly interested. A phone goes off suddenly, Amanda, Alex's other stepsister answers it. "I'm coming over later," she says into the phone. "I love you, bye." "Do you live under a rock?" Amanda asks her, "her boyfriend is responsible for most of the music we listened to on the way here." "So you're a fan?" "Duh, so please don't kill him, cuz if you kill him that's the end of Motionless in White, and that would suck." "They can find a new singer." I scoff."Can't have Motionless in White without Chris Motionless." Amanda says sarcastically. "True," Alex answers, "plus I can't imagine his parents would be too thrilled with me, well I just came to drop these off," Alex sets two large gift bags down. "I do prefer his mother's cooking anyway," she heads for the door. "I'll see you."
          Alex is standing in front of the door at Chris' mother's house about to knock when Chris opens up the door. Alex gives him a sheepish smile. Chris returns it. "I'm sorry," Alex says after a minute, she looks at Chris' face. It's definitely bruised and his bottom lip is a bit puffy. Chris wraps his arms around Alex and pulls her inside. They stay in the embrace for a long time. "My cheap ass didn't rent a room," Alex says to Chris. "Meaning?" "You have a comfy bed, I'm staying." "Alex, I don't think that's a great idea." "The new stepmonster thinks very highly of me," I say sarcastically, "look, it's just tonight, then I'm gone, I still have a key, I'll just go there now, and leave you alone, I have a lovely phone to keep me entertained and a change of clothes, I'll be gone before you even wake up." "Alex!," Chris' mom comes in and pulls her into a hug. "We're just about to have dinner, why don't you join us?" "Fine." Alex had just driven for almost 13 hours and she was hungry.
Later on Alex is in the shower in Chris' apartment, he still isn't home. She's crying because she did come here to apologize, she doesn't want to be alone anymore. Should she just sleep in his bed like she said she would? Would he join her? She gets out of the shower dries off, puts on one of Chris' Blackcraft shirts and a pair of panties and climbs into bed still crying. About an hour later Alex is asleep and Chris comes home to find her curled up in his bed. He quickly takes a shower and decides to join her. Chris wraps his arms around Alex and falls asleep feeling content.
The next morning Chris wakes up alone, Alex left before he even woke up, she said she would. She even took his shirt with her, a fact he doesn't realize quite yet until he starts to pack for tour four days later, he was leaving for Los Angeles in a week and wouldn't be home for the next five months. Paige's Lament also had a tour starting about a week after for two months.