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hi, it's ryujin and today is march 4.

something happened today and it's kind of bad. i mean, i cried so much when i came to home because of this. and i guess, i should mention about this in my daily record, because it hurt me.

it's about yeji. she told me that i am a selfish person and she also thinks that i act rude to people. but... *sigh* i'm aware that i don't smile so often... i know that i'm uncompanionable to the people that i'm not close with. but i'm so close with yeji... she is my best friend and we have been together like five years. even my best friend thinks like this... that just hurt me a lot. because i try to be the best version of myself when we're together. i try to smile and talk more... but i guess she doesn't like the best version of myself too...

i don't know what to do. actually, what she said is kinda true, so i won't say anything about how she hurt me. the only thing that i can do is change.

i will change... i have to change. i don't wanna be rude and cold to people around me. i'll change... for me and yeji.

i hope that i can be a good person.

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