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fifth record

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hey it's ryujin and i'm back after a few days. 

my dad and i had a serious conversation in this morning. he asked me that "what profession do you want to have in the future?" and i couldn't say anything. he said "okay, you better start thinking about this," with a serious face. and it kinda hurt me, because he probably thinks that i'm not taking this situation serious. but it's not true. 

yes, i don't know what to do in the future. i don't know which profession is profitable for me... but i'm thinking about this and i'm not comfortable like my father thinks. in the lunch time, i asked noah that what he want to do after high school. he smiled at me and said "i want to be director. this is not the profession that my parents want, but... who cares. this is my life and i'm gonna do what i want." 

i said "wow, you're cool." i realized what i said after a few seconds and embarrassed but he smiled at me again. and then he asked me the same question. i said "actually... i don't know what to do. my capabilities are limited. i'm good at literature and art, but i don't know if i can do something about these in the future..." he kept his silence for a minute and after that, he said "i think you can be a good literature teacher." he stood up for going to the class and said "just think about this. being a teacher can be nice." i nodded and said nothing.

however, i thought about it while i was walking to home after school. and it can be fun just like he said. i like literature, so why not... i decided to search about this profession. so that i can be truly sure.

i hope that i will have a good future. and i hope that i can be more together with noah... together in the future too.

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