Carousel |pt. 2| pjy

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I sigh "Can I get dressed first?" I ask, he nods and leaves the bathroom. I get out and get into a tank and some shorts then walking downstairs to him. "So whats wrong?" He asks. "Ya know, if you didn't completely ignore me you'd know." I say crossing my arms, he runs his hands through his hair and looks at me. "I've been busy you know that" He says, I nod. "I know, but we never do anything anymore. You barely say even a word to me. You don't even try to make time for us anymore, no calls, no texts, not even a smile at home. Nothing. You come home, eat some microwave food, then go to bed and leave me alone again. You don't say good morning, or let me know when you leave. I don't know how long its been since I've even heard you tell me you love me"

"Suki.." He mumbles. "Do you?" I ask, He looks at me. "Of course I do!" He says grabbing my hand, I pull away. "You sure do a helluva job showing it." I look at him. "And I heard about you and that coworker of yours, what does she have that I don't?" I ask tearing up. "Am I just not good enough anymore? Did you get bored of me?" I question, the tears rolling down my cheeks. "I'm tired of crying myself to sleep, I'm tired of sleeping alone, I'm tired of being ignored, I'm tired of feeling like I'm not good enough because you don't show me that I am anymore, I'm tired of everything Jinyoung" 

He tears up, looking at me in shock. "Suki I didn't know I- I cut him off. "I've tried so hard to show you Jinyoung, you don't pay any attention to me to notice. I'm tired of being the only one trying to keep us together!" I say gulping and trying to stop my crying. "You got me feeling differently about myself because of it." I take a deep breath before pushing passed Jinyoung and going outside. I call Jackson 

Jackson can I stay with you for a few days?
Of course, whats wrong?
I told Jinyoung how I feel, I can't stay here Jackson. It hurts too much seeing all the good stuff and only getting the bad
I'm sorry Suki
It's not your fault
I just got tired of everything, I wanna get away from it all. I wanna stop having to try
Okay, you can stay here. We can stay up playing video games
Thank you 
No problem

I hang up and wait for Jackson with my head in my hands trying to calm my breathing. I hear a car pull up and look up to see Jackson, and Mark. "I'm not in the mood Mark." I say sternly, climbing into the back seat. "I'm sorry Suki" Mark says sincerely. "I mean, he doesn't try. What can I do?" I ask, Jackson sighs. "You guys can't break everything off, you've came so far. You two are perfect for each other. I'd hate seeing you two break up" Jackson says sadly. 

"I don't plan on breaking up with him" I say gulping. "He can either think about a good thing to do to show me he does care, or he can forget about us and get the fuck out of my life." I cross my arms, Mark nods. "You do you Suk" Jackson says pulling away from the sidewalk. I lay my head on the door and curl up in the seat. I stare at the floor until I eventually fell asleep. 

••••

"Sukiii!" Jackson said poking me, I wake up and look at him. "We're here" He chuckles, I nod and get up and out of the car. I head up to the door and open it, as I enter I hear 2 familiar voices. I walk to the living room. "2JAAAAEEEE!!!" I scream running to them and hugging them both. "I've missed you guys so much" I mumble into Jaebum's arm. "We've missed you too" Youngjae says, I break the hug. "You guys out already?" I ask, Jaebum nods. "I am, Youngjae's gonna do 2 extra years, he's with us for 2 weeks though" He says, I frown. 

"My only child is gonna be gone even longer?" I whine, Youngjae laughs. "I promise I'll call more" He says smiling, causing me to smile also. "Yayyy" I chime excitedly. "Wheres Jinyoung?" Jaebum asks confused. "Well.." I mumble sitting on the couch. "It's kinda a long story" I say, They sit on either side of me. "We've got time" Youngjae says with a reassuring smile, I nod and explain the situation keeping calm the whole time. "I'm gonna kill him." Jaebum says standing up "No Jaebum! Please don't do anything..." I say sighing and sitting back. "But Suki you don't deserve that, and the coworker?"

"I'm giving him time to realize stuff, and when he wants to talk we can talk. For now it's like a little break" I say forcing a small smile. "Okay Fine" Jaebum says annoyed, sitting next to me again. "You guys ordered the Pizza right?" Jackson asks walking from the kitchen, Mark following after him on the phone grinning. "Mark, if thats one of those whores you got over Yuri, I swear to god I'm gonna kill you." I say sternly glaring at him. He puts his phone in his pocket. "It's not actually." He says rolling his eyes, I nod. "Oh really, who was it?" I ask. He grins "You'll see" 

He smiles cockily sitting in the recliner...