LILY’S POV
I can’t tell him. Harry will definitely kill Zayn if I tell them all what I asked Marina. “I can’t tell you…”
Louis put his arm around me, “You can tell us anything love. We won’t judge you. Right guys?”
Everyone shook their heads at Louis. Agreeing that they won’t judge me. “That’s not what I’m worried about.” I turned toward Harry. “I’m worried that Harry will be upset with Zayn. I don’t want to ruin your friendship over some stupid question I asked my sister. It’s not worth the aggravation.”
“Harry promises that he won’t hurt Zayn. Right Harry?” Louis looked at Harry with his best puppy dog face.
“Don’t make a promise you can’t keep Harry. I’m positive you will punch him in the face. Even though it really isn’t his fault I asked the question. I could have asked May or Liz, or even one of you, but I figured since my sister was “experienced” she could give me the right answer so I wouldn’t end up like her.”
I was so ashamed. May knew the question. She knew why I had asked Marina and she knew what Marina had told me. Telling Zayn made me feel worthless.
Louis nudged me, “Come on now. You can do this. It can’t be that bad.”
I grabbed Zayn’s hand. “I asked her… when I should have sex with Zayn.”
May looked at me, “Tell him what she said.”
Zayn squeezed my hand. “It’s alright babe. Tell us what she said.”
“She… She told me that I should do it the next time we go out because I had made you wait long enough. So I asked her where I could got birth control without our parents finding out. She told me I could go to Plan Parenthood and they would give me birth control… and…”
He squeezed my hand even harder. “And…. She told me I had to the next time we were together because you would love me more that way. Because it’s better without a condom and my ugly body would never turn you on to begin with so you had to “Keep It Up” some way. And I believed every word that she said. I believed it all. So that’s how this all started. I told her I was going to do that the next time we were alone and she went and told my mother that night when I slept at May’s house.”
Harry’s fists were clenched. May was trying to calm him down, by rubbing his back. Both Niall and Liam had tears streaming down their face. Zayn was crying, he wouldn’t even look at me. The only person that wasn’t displaying any emotions was Louis. He was just staring at me, dumbstruck, like I had just hit him with a kick ball and he couldn’t believe I had actually hit him.
“Please don’t be mad Harry. It’s not his fault.”
“How can I not be mad? I don’t know who I’m even mad at. What’s worse? The fact that you listened to your sister or the fact that she would tell you this crap. You people are ridiculous.”
Zayn jumped up from the floor. “Shut up! You aren’t even a part of this! This is between me and Lily. Not you! Are you Zayn or Lily? NO, you are HARRY STYLES! So keep your comments to yourself and let my girlfriend be mad at me.”
May snarled at the two of us. “He has every fucking right to be mad! He knew this whole time what you were thinking. Maybe if he had told me or Lily then she wouldn’t be bulimic and she wouldn’t be living with her boyfriend because her mother is psychotic!”
How can she solely blame Zayn for this? She’s my best friend! She should be on my side! Not blaming the guy I love, the person I am going to spend the rest of my life with.
“May, he obviously doesn’t feel that way anymore! Don’t you remember? FOREVER AND ALWAYS. HE TOLD ME FOREVER AND ALWAYS!”
“Yeah, and people break promises all the time you know that damn well!” She yelled in my face.
“At least my boyfriend had the guts to bring me out in public! He didn’t wait three months to announce that he was dating me!”
Harry was going to retaliate, but May stepped in front of Harry and I stepped in front of Zayn. “Enough!” Louis schreeched.
“That is it! I will not sit here and listen to the four of you bicker! Zayn and Lily get in my car now! I am bringing you back to Zayn’s flat. Harry and May stay here with Liam and Niall and then I will bring you to Harry’s flat after. Alright? Okay.”
Louis sassily stompped into the kitchen to get his car keys. He came back and no one had moved, we just stared at each other. “LET’S GO!”
MAY’S POV
“That’s right bitch tits! You leave! Get out of here!” I screamed at Lily and Zayn.
Liam lightly smacked my arm, “That wasn’t necessary.”
“Yes it was!”
“May Robinson, you will shut up right now or you will get the hell out of my flat!”
Did Liam just curse at me? What just happened?
Harry pulled me towards him. He whispered in my ear, “Babe,it’s not with it. Calm down.”
He rubbed his thumb against my hand. Trying to remain calm, I plopped onto the couch. I sat in silence with Harry. Niall and Liam went upstairs. 20 minutes of nothing but the sound of us breathing.
When Louis walked in the door, he barked at us. “Get in the car.”
Then he turned around and sat in his car. As soon as the door was shut, he peeled out of the driveway. None of us had said a word until Louis had run a stop light.
“Lou, can you slow down a bit?”
“Styles, I’m not in the mood.”
“Slow down or let me and May out of the car Lou.”
He slammed on the breaks. “You just tore apart Lily and Zayn’s relationship and all you care about is me doing the speed limit? Are you nuts?”
“Louis, Harry has every right to be mad at Zayn.”
Before I could continue he cut me off, “HE HAD NO RIGHT TO TAKE IT OUT ON LILY! AND YOU HAD NO RIGHT TO YELL AT HER EITHER! SHE’S YOUR BEST FRIEND FOR GOD’S SAKE!”
He hit me right where he knew I would freak out. “Do you have any idea what I have done for that girl? Any idea how much I have gone through to keep her in my life?”
“All the same things she’s done to be with Zayn. Everything you have done to keep Lily, she’s done to keep Zayn. Therefore, you are a hypocrite and Lily deserves an apology from both of you.”
At that moment, Louis parked the car in the driveway of Zayn’s flat. Lily’s suitcases were sitting on the lawn. She walked out of the flat crying, and slammed the door.
What have I done?
