forever // ziam

[18] vows | pt. 2

warning: TEARS WILL BE SHED

All this time has been wasted and I can't get it back. I'm going to be a horrible husband.

I now sit on the driver's seat of my car just starring onto nothing and just thinking of what I should do right now. I've runaway from my problems and done nothing about them. Especially the ones that involve Zayn.

My phone rings, interrupting me from my thoughts. The caller ID is Zayn. I don't know if I should answer it buy i'm dying to know what Zayn has to say. The phone still rings. And it rings, and rings until it stops until the screen says "You have 1 new voicemail".

I grabbed my phone and tap on the notification and let the audio play:

Liam. Where are you? Why did you runaway again? I know this is hard for you and that you're scared and slightly confused, but why did you runaway? You love me right? Please tell me you love me. Of course I won't hear you say it now, this is a voicemail, but I just need to know. I don't want to lose you. I love you too much to let you go and if I do let you go, I don't know what I will do without you.

There was a sudden pause.

I love you. And I don't care if you killed someone, I don't care if you get scared all the time, and I don't care if you're having second thoughts. As long as I am with you i'll--

Then the audio stops. And the waterworks start again. Goddamit why can't I just wrap my head around this marriage thing? I said yes to the proposal, I planned almost the entire thing, my love for Zayn is as big as the entire universe. No. My love for Zayn could not fit in the universe. I love Zayn that much.

Then an idea comes to mind. I look for the notepad I leave here just in case I have to write something down to remember for later and i'll sure need this for next weekend. I find it inside the little drawer thing and take out the pen with it.

I immediately write down all the words that come to my mind:

If we could only have this life for one more day and if we could only turn back time, I would stop the tape and rewind, I'll be here by your side. No more fears, no more crying. And the moment I couldn't believe that you are here lying next to me and thinking that it's just a dream about us being perfectly entwined like branches on a trees or twigs caught on a vine. You and I we will never be like them, we can make it 'til the end cause nothing can come between You and I.

All I really wanna say is, Zayn fucking Malik I love you and my love for you could not fit in this universe and all the stars in it.