Loving you book 2

Chapter 16

YVE

I forgot how very perceptive my best friends are, now we've all settled inside our room and they were both facing me.

"What's wrong?" Ethan asked quietly.

"If you say nothing one more time I swear I will call JC and let him know I'm not giving you back until you tell me the truth." Leah said, her frustration evident.

I stared at her, I know her threats are real and if I want to see my husband anytime soon I'm going to have to confide in them. I turned to Ethan and I saw the determination in his eyes. He wanted the truth too.

But thinking about confiding in them and actually doing it are two different things.

"Ok. Just give me time, a few minutes." I told them, trying to gather my thoughts.

"Ok." Ethan said before he laid down beside me.

I thought about what happened the night I asked him if we could try to conceive another baby, I didn't give him a chance to say anything. I got scared he'd say no. I saw the worry and the anxiety in his eyes, maybe it was too soon but what Roselle said really shook me to my core.

She envied everything about me, the things I never bothered about. Of course I was blessed with a family that loves me, but she doesn't know what we had to go through to get to where we are now. We were very good at keeping appearances too.

My friends, I am blessed with real friends and JC and his entire family, well, most of it anyway too.

I could understand where she was coming from. I realized I might've been too rude. It was easy for me to judge because I've never been in her situation. She just wanted an out any way she could. I should've been more understanding of her situation.

When JC texted me that day that Roselle was there to see him, I just saw red. Mom and I were on our way out of the hospital then and the news that I was given the go-ahead by my OB-gynecologist to try for another child was put aside as we hurried to get to JC's office.

Wait, did we ever talk about my doctor's appointment? I don't think we did.

Oh no.

He didn't know and I'm so stupid. I placed my arm on my head to cover my eyes before I took a deep steadying breath. I've been miserable all this time and he doesn't know.

"What did you realize?" Leah asked, breaking through my thoughts. I didn't know she was watching me and she probably saw my reaction.

How does she do that? "I think. I overreacted and made a mistake." I said sheepishly.

"Are you going to tell us everything now?" Ethan said. I nod my head, yes. Now that I know it was a stupid mistake on my part, it's not so hard to say it out loud to my two best friends.

I took a deep breath before saying, "Please just listen to me, all reactions after I'm done, ok?"

"You know we can't do that, right?" Leah said.

"This time, try. I know I made a huge mistake and made myself miserable for fear of being turned down. So please." I begged them.

"I promise to try." Ethan said.

"Ok, I promise to try too." Leah said.

"Ok, so you both know I wanted to give JC a child of our own because I saw it in his eyes when I was with my god-brothers and God-sisters. I lied to him that I was safe so we'd conceive. True enough, we did. Although we never got to try out the pregnancy test we bought earlier that evening we talked about it and he looked so happy Leah."