I'm not going anywhere

16

"boyssss dinner" River calls from downstairs.

"Shit" I mumbled between kisses as Harri climbed off of me fixes his hair and runs downstairs. I get up in the mirror and run my fingers over my swollen lips and the obvious hickey on my neck

"Shit" River is gonna be so pissed I'm 15 I shouldn't be getting hickeys at sleepovers he will never let us sleep in the same bed, I mess around in front of the mirror until its as covered as much as I can and head down. everyone is sat at the table eating and talking, I serve up a bowl and sit down. Harri is so different from what I thought, I don't know how I feel about it either... I'm starting to get an idea of what his mum was talking about and who he has been with before.

"do you boys wanna play cards with us later" I laugh, not in a mean way

"Nah we're gonna watch a movie, you never play cards anymore?" he and Alex used to play all the time when they were younger but I haven't seen them play in a while

"well if you don't need us we might go to the shop and do some grocery shopping and stuff" I take another bite and nod

"don't forget milk" Alex laughs

"he's been complaining about not having milk all afternoon don't you worry about him forgetting," Alex tells me and we all laugh except River.

We don't take much longer before we're all packed up and back in my room, I feel weird Harri had always been this cute little boy with flowers on his shirt playing the piano. We're sat under the covers next to each other watching 'That '70s Show' were half an episode in and he places his hand on my thigh but this time I'm not turned on I feel uncomfortable, I pause the show and look at him

"Harri...."

"were home alone for a while"

"no Harri I don't want you to do that stuff" his face drops

"am I not good?"

"no, your amazing, I just feel it's not you"

"but isn't it what you want, I really like you and I don't want you to leave me..." he starts to tear up

"Harri, I really like you too that's why you don't have to do that stuff I'm fine with just hanging out, cuddling and kissing let's take it slow, were 15 we don't need to do that" he smiles and I take his hand in mine and continue watching the movie, I watch his reflection in the screen

"you're so cute Harri" He giggles and tucks his head into my shoulder, he is such a softy it's weird seeing him in black, he always wears pastel colours.

I pull him closer and run my fingers through his hair... He's mine and Noone can have him.

"Wait..... I asked you out" he tilts his head up to look at me and smiles I kiss him on the forehead, I feel bad for not giving him a romantic story to tell his mum,

"Let's go for a walk"

"Huh? I'm not dressed" he sits up and looks at me, his hands placed gently on my chest.

"You look cute anyway but if you wanna get changed go ahead. Harri jumps of me and runs to his bag and into the bathroom. I get changed too into a pair of black graph print jeans and a black tshirt I want to look nice for this, Harri comes out in a a pair of pink overalls and an old thrasher shirt.

"Come on cutie" I put out my hand and pull him towards me peck his lips then run down stairs with him closely following behind
"Were just going for a walk we won't be long" River pops his head over the lounge and looks at me

"Stay safe, don't talk to strangers, stay together, don't go far and no longer than an hour, it's 8 now be back before 9, I love you" I tell him I love him too and run outside with Harri's hand in mine we run a metre or two and start walking shoulders touching

"What are we doing ?" Harri asks as he gently rests his head in my arm cause he's not talk enough to reach my shoulder.

"It's a suprise, nothing crazy just nice" I tell him as we pull into the park and make our way to the tree we sat under together a few days ago, we sit down him tucked under my arm.

"Harri...." He turns his head and looks at me with question

"I want to break up with you" He sits up quickly his face full of hurt, I feel like a monster but I have to after what happened earlier I couldn't live with it.

"Willow..." He inches away from me as I try to grab his hand

"Why?" Tears sit at his eyes

" I...i... I want to ask you out properly..." I take his hand a pull him back towards me

"Harri you mean to much to me, I couldn't live with how I asked you out I feel liked it wasn't enough and that you deserve more your so sweet and special so Harri will you be my boyfriend" he smiles and the tears let loose from his eyes, he nods innocently and climbs into my lap cuddling into my chest, I wrap my arms around him tightly.

"I was so scared you were like the rest , but your not" I don't know much about the people he has dated before, I didn't even know he had dated boys before today.

"You actually care you don't just want me for my body and that makes me happy"

"You make me happy" I whisper and kiss him on the head. We sit like this for about 20 minutes before walking back, with my hand over his shoulder talking about the most random things like how terrifying it would be if turtles could fly or if you could hear ants and our top 3 favourite dinosaurs , I feel so different with Harri when I'm with the boys I'm all angry and masculine but Harri makes me feel relaxed and that I can talk about silly things.