Yin and Yang

Ch.5-Confessions

(Pic is Sara)

Sweet pea's p.o.v

What have I done? She looked so beautiful when she was sleeping. She looks beautiful all the time really, but all the tension is gone from her face right now and she looks like, well an angel. I wasn't nearly as smashed as she was last night, I knew what I was doing, but I can't string her along if I'm gonna be with Josie.

With a sigh of resignation, I realized what I had to do. I stood up and dressed myself before grabbing a blanket and tossing it over her naked body. While yes she was dead to the world, I'm not sure she was dead enough for me to wrestle her into her bathing suit. I threw her clothes on top of her before carefully picking her up, careful not to jostle her too much.

I started heading in the direction of Fangs' trailer with a heavy heart. She could never remember this, not if we were ever going to be just friends. I don't know why it hurt for me to think she wouldn't remember, it should make me happy to know she won't give that scowl of disappointment when I went back to Josie. Josie was predictable, she was safe, and as much as I wanted Angie, I needed safe right now. I feel sick to my stomach knowing what I have to do so I don't keep falling for her.

I skillfully opened the door to the trailer, and carefully shut it behind me hoping to not wake Fangs or Angie. I gently set the sleeping girl on the couch, and moved for her bag to find a baggy shirt to put one her. After a few minutes I found one, and maneuvered Angie so I could put it on but not wake her up. Somehow I managed to do it and draped a blanket over her after I was done.

Before I could stop myself, my hand was reaching out to stroke her face gently with my finger knowing I wouldn't be able to do this again, probably ever. Lost in thought I didn't hear the approaching footsteps.

"Sweet pea? What're you doing here?" A tired Fangs asked while leaning up against a wall.

"Um...I, uh, I was just..." My brain had apparently forgot how to form a coherent sentence, much less an excuse. Before I could actually get anything out Fangs face morphed into one of shock.

"Oh my gosh, you slept with her didn't you?" He humorlessly chuckled. With a sigh I knew I had to explain.

"Yes, ok? I did, and I know I shouldn't have... especially since she can never remember." With that I gave Fangs a pleading look, but saw he was already shaking his head realizing what I was saying.

"Are you kidding me Sweet pea!? That is so not fair to her, she deserves better than that! How could you?" I don't think I had ever seen Fangs this angry before.

"Because I'm falling for her, ok Fangs? You happy? I'm falling for her so hard it scares me, because I don't know where she stands. Josie is easy, and I do genuinely like her, so if I cut off whatever is going on in with me and Angie right now, I may be able to save myself." I gazed at the girl underneath me, unable to stop the squeezing in my chest.

"Leave." I looked at Fangs, shocked. His arms were crossed, and I'd never seen the carefree boy look so stern. Something was up.

"What's going on with you? I've never seen you act like this."

"It doesn't matter. Leave now and I won't tell her you're ditching her for a northsider." He seethed at me. I nodded before slowly standing up. I couldn't help the last glance I sent in my angel's direction before I walked out the door with a heavy heart.

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Angie's p.o.v

Ugh, my head. I'm so stupid for drinking that much. That's all I remember from last night really. Alcohol. Alcohol. More alcohol. I'm shocked I don't have alcohol poisoning actually. I sighed loudly. Bad idea. Next thing I know I'm launching myself towards the bathroom, ignoring the pounding in my head. I must have puked for 5 minutes straight, it sure felt like it. I groaned as I laid my head on the cool bathtub trying to soothe my nausea.