Avengers And Peter Parker One-shot (currently Editing)

I'm definitely not depressed definetly not

TW: Depression, self harm

Peter's POV

I'm not depressed. No.

I mean I do cut. Sometimes. I mean it's not that I always cut when i get home. Why would I be depressed?? I mean the fact that I aleways wear a fake smile. And the fact that flash always bullies me. And so many people doesn't believe in Spiderman. And so many people hates me. That doesn't make me depressed......right?

I do punch the walls but that's because I was angry because of myself. I'm not depressed. I'm fine.
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Fine!!! I am depressed. So what if I am?? Yes, I did think of killing myself. Yes, I always hurt myself.

I just wish I can have my own peace. Where there's no hatred. Where there's no bullying. Where there are no bad people. Where I can be happy and peaceful.

But I need to save other people before saving myself........... I can handle it...... I can handle my suicidal thoughts........ I can handle the hate.......... I can handle the pain.......... I want to prove that I am strong.

Dear diary,

When can i die? I tried cutting myself but my stupid super healing always saves me. I tried letting a robber shoot me but the avengers got alerted and they saved me. I tried drinking so many pills but again my stupid healing factor saves the day again. I just wish my time will come soon

But.....

Aunt may would be alone if I died. Ned would have no star wars buddy. Mj would lose one of her loser.
Ms. Romanoff would lose her little spider. Mr. Stark would lose his spiderson. Ms. Potts would lose the future heir of stark industries. Mr. Rhodes would lose his favorite kid. Mr. Banner would lose one of his science buddy. Mr. Rogers would lose one of his listener whenever he tells a story about world war II. Mr. Barnes would lose his cookie taster. Mr. Wilson would lose his prank war enemy. Mr. Barton would lose his Mario cart buddy. Ms. Maximoff would lose another brother. Mr. Vision would lose one of his intelligent friend. Mr. Thor would lose his worthy buddy. Mr. Loki would lose his best friend. Shuri would lose his meme buddy. King t'challa would lose one of the people who give him stress. The guardians of the galaxy would lose their smart and better peter. Dr. Strange would lose his Doctor stuff student. Mr. Lang would lose his favorite nephew.

And I don't like that. I don't like seeing them sad because of me. I would hate myself more. I don't want to see them suffer because of me. I don't like seeing them being depressed like me.

So, I wouldn't give up. I wouldn't give up because I have someone to look up to. I have someone that believes in me. I have more lovers than haters. I have someone that loves me. And I would do anything to make them happy because...... I love them. I love them more than I love myself. I wouldn't give up for them.

But if the time did come. I want them to remember that not because I was gone doesn't mean I wasn't there. I would always be by their side. I hope they know that. I don't want to see them give up.

End of diary.

One day I asked them during dinner.

"Hey guys, what if I died? " I asked them and they all looked at me worriedly. I smiled because i knew they cared for me.

"Well, peter, we would never ever let that happen. " mr. Rogers said and the other avengers agreed.

"Well if someone kills you, we'll kill first before they even touch you, and if you'll get sick then we'll do everything to save you, and if it's an accident then we won't let you near them, and if........ If you did it to yourself then we wouldn't let you. We would make sure that you know that we love you and you are important to us. " natasha said smiling and peter smiled at them 'They're my happiness' peter thought

"But what if you guys killed me?"(I think I'll do this in the next chapter. I'm not sure) peter asked and the other avengers chuckled

"Like hell we would let that happen, kid" tony said smiling and peter was so happy because they were really there for him.

"Why the sudden ask though? " sam asked worriedly and the other avengers looked at peter and peter got nervous.

"Oh it's nothing. I just randomly thought" peter said trying to lie because to be honest he have been thinking about that for a very long time. He was just happy that he finally asked them.

"But just remember that we would always be here for you because we love you, pete" bruce said though they knew he was lying but they didn't want to push him to tell the truth.

"I know. That's why I'm thankful for you guys. " peter said and the others smiled happily at him. But wanda spoke up and asked him

"Pete, are you depressed.....?" she asked awkwardly and peter thought 'I guess not anymore thanks to you guys' but peter decided not to say that

"What?? No. I'm not depressed!! Definetly not" peter whispered the last part and the avengers wanted him to open up but they decided to let it slip and ate their dinner happily. After that they had a movie night.

They are a happy super family.

The end