fascinate me // a messy poem book

alone for tonight

this wasn't how i wanted the night to go

but it's fine, it's really nothing new

just empty bottles of my hope

i've searched for souls that grew

knowing that i would've never done the same

i kept myself away from the world

the world that always looked to me to blame

i don't want to be a selfish person, cold

i just don't want to try so hard for someone

when i've already been played 100 times

they said they'd change as they held up a gun

so i'll crack open my old friends after their crimes

cause they killed someone without even trying

that's just how it works

that's how it goes

that is what happens when you grow up alone.