Forever Blue

SAD

I opened my eyes after the horrid scream I just let out a minute ago. I was having a nightmare I ended up losing everything I ever loved. I can't remember much but there was a tatted, dark haired guy. He looked super tense and was holding a gun at me. I was being robbed I think. My mom was beside me but that's all I remember.

I wiped the sleep out of my eyes and headed to the bathroom. My mom worked nightshift so she wasn't there to hear my screams. I look at myself in the mirror and see someone who is broken. So sad she can't even look at herself. I went back to my bedroom and tapped my phone to see what time it was. It said, 7:00am. I had to be at work at 11:30am so I decided to try to sleep. I laid back down and closed my eyes. I fell back to sleep.

I woke up around 10:00am, I decided to make breakfast for myself. It was the least I could do since I gave myself a heart attack last night. I grabbed the eggs and bacon out of the fridge. I managed to cook them fast. I had to leave at 11 since it takes me 20 minutes to get there. I headed back into my room so I could get ready for work.

I worked at a local bar where we had a strict dress code of booty shorts and a black tee shirt with the bar name on my left chest area. It was called 34 Night. We served lunch food and dinner food. We also had a huge bar which took up most of the building. My boss decided to have lunch food so we can draw the customers in all day. I didn't have a problem in working all day long. I had great tips and I had a great group to work with. I'm 20 so I don't get to drink but I get to serve. My boss let's me sip sometimes but I don't like to drink a lot.

I sat at my makeup vanity and did my makeup. I opted for a winged eyeliner and lots of mascara. I tend to get more tips when I wear makeup. I ended up putting on some pumping lipgloss.

Next was my hair, this is the tricky part. I have always had weird hair. It's not straight and it's not curly. It's a weird wave and I hate it. I tend to straighten but today I wanted to switch it up. I curled my hair into like a beach wave. Not gonna lie I love it. I threw on my work clothes and my nice all black converse low tops and I was ready to go. I got in my car and drove to work.

I walk in to the bar. My boss swears that I look like a movie star. I took the compliment but I didn't think so. I have low self esteem. I just feel like I am floating. I am nothing. I clock in and get to work. I sat most of the tables and served them. The good customers come in around 6pm and it's 4pm.

So I decided to take my break. My boss gives me 30 minutes to clear my head before the graveyard shift. Well I mean that's what he calls it. I still think he's mental.

I go outside in the back. I sit in the same spot everytime I work. My boss named it Sapphire's Place. It's my name on a sign and it's a chair under a magnolia tree. Sapphire is my birth name but I usually go by Sappy. Sapphire is way too long for people to remember.

My break went quick and I hated it. But this is where things get weird. The graveyard shift brings out the most unique and crazy people in our bar. The bar sits in the middle of town. This was the go to spot. I only knew where it was cause I had to pass it everyday when I went to high school.

I clocked back in and put on my game face. Time passed and it was 6pm. It was showtime. I worked the bar after 6pm. I technically work two shifts in a day so I can put in more hours. Plus I was a local favorite so my boss doesn't like me not to work.

My first customer of the night was a lady who looked like she just came from her work. She was definitely a stripper. She was a local too. I've seen her around. She ordered a long island ice tea. The night went super smoothly until the final hour. A guy walks in...tatted head to toe. I've seen him before. I can't figure out where but he looks so familar. He sits right in front of me and orders a beer on tap. I was super shocked so my boss had to pull me aside.

"What are you doing Sap? I pay you to make the customers happy not uncomfortable." John says. I just nod and go back to work. The strange man was with a group. They looked to be in a gang but I do not assume. He has been staring at me all night. I tried to take other orders before I went to him. The other bartender had to get him and his buddies drinks. I just couldn't. He seemed so familar and I didn't want to look like I was mental.

The graveyard shift was over and I clocked out. He left a little bit ago with his buddies. He got a call and he motioned his boys to pick up the tab. The one who sat to his left picked it up and looked pissed off.

I was headed to my car and I heard something. I couldn't tell what it was so I ran to my car. I started and hoped no one would pop out of the woods. I pulled out of the parking lot and headed home. My mom should be home since she worked all night. I don't really get to see my mom much since she works nights and I work days. The days that she doesn't work I work so I tend to have convo with her on our phones.

I got home and went straight to the kitchen. I made myself leftovers and I ate them so fast. I don't tend to eat a lot since my whole depression episodes and work. Food isn't really my thing anymore. I used to love it so much that I gained 30 pounds senior year. But that was short lived. I got depressed and the pounds just vanished. I didn't like I used to. I sustain myself but I don't binge.

I put my dishes away and headed to the bathroom. I needed a shower after working all day in a bar. It's that certain smell you just can't get rid of. I stripped and turned the water on. I made sure it was hot. I read something that when people take really hot showers or baths that they crave human touch. I mean I do need human touch since I've practically been single for two years. It never really bothered me being single. I was in an abusive relationship so I was glad to get out of there as soon as I could.

It was midnight and I don't have to work tomorrow since I pulled two shifts in one day. I just hope that I can sleep tonight. I kind of hope I dream about that guy again. Why was he in my dreams? Especially my nightmare. I shut my eyes and fell asleep.