by my side | jotaro

FOUR | Home Sweet Home

Once I arrived to the Kujo residence you were greeted with a large, traditional, Japanese house. It had a beautiful garden, and a clear pond. I was in awe. Jotaro grabbed my hand and dragged me to the door. "You're going to catch a cold if you don't come inside." He said sternly.

I obeyed and walked inside of the grand house. I were greeted by a friendly smile. There was a middle aged woman with bright orange hair and blue eyes. She seemed to be Italian and American, and you presumed she was Jotaro's mother. "Jojo! I can't believe you brought a friend over, not to mention a girl!" She giggled.

"Shut up, you old bitch." Jotaro snapped. I didn't expect less but you were frightened by how he had arrested his mother. His mother shrugged it off and I grabbed the back of Jotaro's jacket. "You have to apologize to her, its disrespectful." I said in a soft dangerous tone. Jotaro sighed and mumbled an apology and I looked back at his mother who's eyes were glistening with happiness.

"Sorry for the intrusion, miss..." I didn't know what to call her. "Just call me Seiko or Holly. That is what my friends address me as, and also you can take a shower. Jotaro can get you towels." She smiled at me. I felt happy and decided it was a good idea to take a shower so I don't catch anything. I slipped into the bathroom and took off my clothes before stepping into the shower. The shower was made out of glass and it fogged up so nobody could see anything except the outline of my body.

Then I  heard a knock and saw the door open a little bit. "I have towels and clothes." You heard Jotaro's voice and shrieked. "What the hell, man!" I yelled. "Yare, yare, it's not like I can see anything so stop being dramatic." I sighed in slight annoyance that he called you dramatic, and the door closed and Jotaro had left. Once I was done showering I slipped on the clothes Jotaro had brought me. They were some old shirts and shorts. They were loose and I liked baggy clothing.

I found Jotaro's room and I knocked. He opened it and his tall figure loomed above me. He didn't have his hat on, and I think he looks sexier without his hat... While I was staring at him I noticed his cheeks turn pink, and he turned his head away. I looked at him confused, and realized I wasn't wearing a bra and that he could see through my shirt. I started blabbering about how it was my fault and I hid myself so he couldn't see anything else.

"Holy mother of shit, I had no idea! Sorryyy!" I said while violently blushing.

He sighed and mentioned to sit next to him on his bed. I sat down uncomfortably, as he looked at me, eyes fixated on my face. "What!" I said breaking the silence. He hummed and I smiled. "Can I use the bathroom?" I blurted out. He nodded and I left the room and went inside the bathroom. I stared at myself in the mirror wondering what people saw in me.

I wasn't that pretty and I didn't feel any better if boys and men are all over me. The worries and depression that overcame me was surreal. The demons were going to take control of me, and I had no way to stop them. Another weirdo was stalking me today, and I had to beat him up. I hate violence even though I associate with it every day.

I left the bathroom and walked back into the room. Jotaro wasn't there... I walked in the room, and I felt two hands grip my shoulders. They pulled my body down. I realized Jotaro had pinned my body down on the floor. I couldn't comprehend what was going on. My body started trembling. The only guy I didn't want to associate with was Jotaro.

He looked deep within my (e/c) eyes. His aqua eyes were filled with lust, and desire. He blinked a few times and the lust went away, as if he was trying to hold back. He asked me, "Do you know why I told you my problems?" I gulped and those words echoed through my body. I was getting goosebumps and I felt Jotaro's weight shift so that his face was even more closer to my own.

Shakily I gathered up my confidence and I spoke one single word. "Stop." I could feel his breath on my face. "Why... Don't you want this? I told you because I trust you." He said. I shook my head and he softened up a bit. He leaned in, and I pulled back. "I'm sorry, I can't." I told him, my tears begging to flow out of my eyes. I pushed him away, walked out of his room and made my way to the front door, and I told Holly that my parents needed me back home.

When I arrived at my house I felt relief and worry fill my thoughts. I thought of what could've happened. I didn't want to lose my virginity or a kiss to him either. I sighed and made my way to my bed, and I took off the clothes Jotaro gave me and buried them deep into my closet so I wouldn't have to see them again.

I never wanted to see them. Was he trying to take advantage of me? Was he going to do something bad to me? I think I should just stay away from him, I knew I shouldn't associate with him. He would never understand how I felt. Does he just expect I'm head over heels in love with him? I hid my face in my pillows. I felt (angry/sad/worried/angst).

I wanted to punch something. I wanted to punch him. I also wanted to see him, me know more about his intentions. But after that I don't think I have the guts to confront him. Nonetheless he was super scary... I want to know, I want to know how to fix this!

I sighed and changed and went to bed. The rain was pounding outside. I looked over at my picture of Kakyoin I kept in my room. I had recently put some flowers near it the image, and I cried and cried. Why does everyone I love leave me? People disappear and it is heartbreaking. Nobody wants to see who I really am. Just care about how I look, never how I act or who I really am. I'm pissed and sad, how can I escape this dilemma?

When I woke up it was late morning. I took a shower and rummaged through my closet because it was a weekend. Saturday. I slipped on some clothing and I exited my room. Almost saw a familiar hat in my house and I ran straight back too my room trying not to make a noise. I slumped back down and I heard noises. Thump, thump, thump. I heard my mom's voice.

Shit. She must've heard me. Jotaro fucking Kujo was in my house! What do I do? I locked my door and my mom knocked and said, "When you're done we have a guest waiting for you downstairs. I need to go to work now, but stay safe." I waited awhile in my room debating on whether or not I should go and see him. I decided I should.