by my side | jotaro

THREE | Trauma

As I watched Jotaro's aquamarine eyes drift off to the dark abyss of an ocean. "Hey, you can tell me anything. I don't mind listening to your past experiences..." I said quietly. He eyed me and looked deep into my (e/c) orbs. He let out a deep sigh.

The way he looked me sent chills down my spine. I shuddered as the giant loomed over me. "My PTSD was triggered due to some events that happened while I was gone for fifty days last year." You looked surprised, because you remembered them as days where you had some peace in your life.

You turned to him, his eyes turning to meet yours. He said, "I'm not that person who opens up to people, so I guess I trust you a lot because I feel comfortable sharing, with you... Because I've never had a real person who care after those events in Egypt." You felt warm and mushy inside because you loved when people took time to notice you.

"You're probably going to say that this is just something out if a fairy tale, but I left to kill a vampire named DIO. He had taken over my great-great-Jiji's body and wants to kill my bloodline." He whispered. You laughed a bit because of how he had addressed his great-great-grandfather.

You didn't quite believe him, but you did believe him. "While we were on the search for DIO, I met some people who changed my life. There were four people but three of them were dead. Mohammad Avdol, Iggy, and Noriaki Kakyoin."

You felt a tremble of fear. You knew you had been hallucinating Kakyoin's appearance ever since he left you, but you pretended nothing had happened, about a year ago. You always couldn't shake the fact that Kakyoin had passed away, and every time someone brought him up you would shake up, and start tearing up.

Ever since he left school mysteriously I had been worried about him because I thought he ran away from the loneliness. I fell into a depression and soon I never saw Kakyoin again. He would text me occasionally while he was gone, but later he stopped and I saw on the news one time that he had died in Egypt. I cried over a billion tears and they wouldn't stop flowing. The last time I saw Kakyoin is a clear memory, and one I will never, ever forget. You started tearing up, by his words.

You couldn't cry, not in front of the most popular boy in school you couldn't! You were holding back the crazy flood of emotions, and you didn't want to trigger his PTSD. He seemed to notice the tension, "You can let it out," he said gently wrapping his fingers around yours, and you squeezed his hand.

Tears flowed down on your face and you slowly said, "Kakyoin was my best friend..." To your surprise he said, "Me too. He died fighting for me. My PTSD started because I felt constantly traumatized of my friends' deaths, and the fact that if I loved something, it would disappear. I have been lonely, and most of the time I don't want to be with anyone because I don't want anyone to die anymore..."

You saw one glistening tear drop from his blue eyes, which had their own story to tell. "It was rough on me because there was nobody to talk to, no relations, no people who could see Star Platinum... Like how Kakyoin felt with Hierophant Green." He trembled with every word. You could feel his body slowly tremble.

When he mentioned Hierophant Green you burst into more tears. "I remember how Kakyoin used to say that Hierophant Green was his imaginary friend and hero. He always said that whenever he was in trouble Hierophant would save him because nobody else wanted to." I hugged Jotaro and cried a river of tears, and I repeated that process for a while.

I eventually cried myself to sleep, and I felt strong hands grip me. When I woke up it was late still, and my mom was thanking someone downstairs. (I didn't want to see who it was but I was curious/already knew who it was, but I went and checked). When I peeked out of my room, I saw my mom eye me. She looked worried, and then the door closed.

"Mom, who was that?" I asked her confused. "Oh, it was your boyfriend, Jotaro. He carried you here and told me you were crying over Kakyoin." My mom grinned and my face was turning a bright pink color. "Next time, introduce me, and I bet you Kakyoin doesn't want you to cry because he's dead, okay?" I nodded my head and I slumped my shoulders and went back to bed.

Once I woke up I put on my uniform and I went back to school. It was the same routine and barely anything had changed in my life. I walked back to school and I saw Jotaro being hoarded by his "fan girls" I sighed and ignored him for the rest of the day and I thought it was pretty easy. During the end of school nobody was going to walk home with me so I started my trek back home.

Then after I had passed the school gates, I felt a large, muscular hand grip my shoulders. I tensed up, and I heard a voice behind me, "Chill out." The deep voice echoed through my body and I knew who it was. I immediately turned my head back and I removed his hand from my shoulder.

"What do you want..." I asked him emotionless. He looked into my eyes, our gazes locked. His blue eues then broke the gaze, and he tipped down his hat. "I want to walk you home," I shrugged and we went on our way. We said nothing and I liked the silence. It was extremely peaceful. We had jaywalked a few times but I didn't mind because honestly, if I was in a rush I would jaywalk.

When we approached his house, I sent him off and he pulled me into a tight embrace, his ears turning red. The corners of my mouth turned upwards, and he said, "Thanks for listening yesterday." I kissed him on the cheek and I saw him blush. "You listened to me and I wanted to say thanks." I said happily. I walked home really giddy, and I felt so loved, and appreciated.

Once I had reached my home, I looked in the mirror and sighed. I needed to (lose weight/gain weight) so I decided to go to the gym. I pulled a loose gray crop top and some black shorts. I grabbed a basketball and I was there for a few hours dribbling and shooting some hoops. The court was empty and most of the time I went to clear my head.

Once I was tired, I took a quick break and sipped water from my water bottle. I saw a muscular figure through the door. They had black hair and a hat. I couldn't see the figure that clearly so I put no attention to it. It became kind of awkward because of that person, so I decided to talk to them.

I felt so stupid, because it was Jotaro. I sighed and felt a little bit relieved. Jotaro waved and I walked over to him.

"Soo. Hi, I d-didn't know you played b-basketball..." I stuttered. This wasn't like me. When did I become so nervous around him? "Why are you stuttering and yeah, I play basketball. I'm not on a team, I do it for fun." He said bluntly. I looked at him and I saw his expression was serious and emotionless.

"You're hopeless," I said as I scratched my head. He looked at me confused, and I saw a little smile tugging at the corners of his mouth. I was about to say something when the manager came yelled that the gym was closing for the night.

"Okay, well I better head home. I don't want to worry my (sister/brother/parents)." He nodded and said, "Well at least let me walk you home." I rolled my eyes and we walked out. To my surprise it was pouring outside and I didn't bring a car. Neither did Jotaro. I slumped my shoulders in annoyance, and I whined, "What am I going to do? Its pouring!" I said as I looked at Jotaro.

"Why don't you spend the night at my house? It's closer." He said. I nodded and texted my (parents/sister/brother/etc.) that I am spending the night at a friends house due to give rain. Surprisingly they agreed and I told Jotaro.

Sorry if this chap wasn't too interesting. I needed to build the bond before we get to the spicy action.

~ author :(