MESSED UP.!

CHAPTER SEVEN

Talia's POV

I'm a mental wreck.. yes I know.. I'm an addict. Yes I know.. I can't help it.

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I was about four years old. Mum used to go for night shifts, to me she is basically the breadwinner in the family since I've never seen dad go to work or heard him mention work.

I had always been afraid of thunder and lighting. That night huge raindrops  slid on my bedroom window. I could barely see through it   as fog and darkness  filled the air blocking my view.

It was around ten. Had taken dinner an hour earlier before mum left for work.

"Honey! take care! Love you!". she said after pressing her lips against my forehead.

Since there was nothing else to do as the rain was pouring like crazy, I decided to tuck myself in as I awaited for sleep to take control of my body.

Something was off that night, however much I tried to sleep, I couldn't.  I held on to my barbie doll - which mum gifted me for my birthday tightly as my body froze beneath the sheets.

Once I heard thunder and saw flashes of lighting flashing through the sheets accompanying it, I couldn't take it anymore. I let out a shrill scream as I closed my eyes so tight.

"Princess! are you okay?" father stumbled in my room as he switched on the lights.

I jumped out of bed,,threw myself in his arms and held him  tight. Right there was my guardian angel - or so I thought.

"I'm afraid..papa!"

"Ok princess! I know you afraid of thunder and lighting!..Don't worry papa is here now! Imma take care of you!" He carried me to the master bedroom.

After reading a story to calm me down, he wrapped his arms around me.

"Princess..you still scared?"

"A little papa!"

"Do you want me to get rid of the fear completely?"

"Yes papa!" mini-me said full of enthusiasm.

"Okay! Close your eyes and shush! Will you do that for me?"

"Yes papa!" I gladly closed my eyes with a wide smile forming on my angelic face.

He tickled me, I couldn't help but chuckle and after he made me comfortable, he started kissing me. I was confused and since he was my dad I thought it was okay for him to do so. I laid there like a log not knowing what to do.

He went ahead and sucked my tiny nipples and  as he reached for my underwear, I tried to resist a little.

"Princess! Trust daddy! Okay?? He's gonna make you feel safe!"

I let him remove my undies as he touched my private parts.. I felt ticklish down there and sleep catched up to me.

I woke up next to him completely naked. I couldn't fathom what had happened but I was OK...He walked in and kissed me again.

"Good morning princess! You slept well?"

"Yes papa! I did" I said with a broad smile on my face as usual but deep within me I had this strange feeling.. I couldn't relate.

"OK! Princess.. Don't tell mummy dad made you "feel safe" last night!.okay?"

"Why papa?"

"Because I will take you to Disneyland  on Saturday,buy you lots of ice cream and anything you want my little princess!  Promise!"

"Yeyy!!! Daddy! I promise!" I said happily

"Let this be our tiny secret!" He said as he led me to bathroom where he washed me just in time before mummy arrived.

"Hello baby! How did you sleep? "

"I slept well mummy! Daady promised to take me to Disneyland if I don't tell you our secret!"

"Which secret?"

"He made me feel safe last night!...."

"Honey.. she was scared of lightening so I read her a story and promised her a trip to Disneyland." Dad interrupted.

"O--k--ay honey! that's nice! I'm so tired lemme go and get some rest.. will catch up later.. things were so tough at the hospital last night." she disappeared into the corridor.

Dad gripped me, it was so painful.

"Do you still wanna go to Disneyland?? You better keep your mouth shut!"

I stood there terrified. He must have noticed and came back with an ice cream and just like that my worries faded away.

He was always "keeping me safe" every night mum had gone to work for as long as I can remember. I kind of got used to it. He was my dad and I trusted that he couldn't harm me.

There was one time mum had gone for a business trip. We escorted her to the airport. She was to come back a week later.

That night, dad came to my room with  a drink. I guessed he drugged me cause I passed out afterwards and woke up naked. My bedsheets were covered in blood. I was in so much pain that I couldn't move.

I staggered to the washroom and with every step I made, pain cut through me like a samurai sword down there. I couldn't help but cry so hard.

The thought that my father had raped me and had been molesting me for years stung  my mind. I could still feel his filthy hands on me and with every thought of it I felt like vomiting.

I spent hours in the bathroom trying to wash away his filthy breath and hands but I just couldn't. It stuck in my mind. I was destroyed completely.

I came out from the bathroom just to see my bed spread with clean pink sheets. Rage took over me as I yelled and unmade the sheets as I started throwing things everywhere.

The asshole came running in my room.
I couldn't bare the sight of him. I threw the bedside table at him, it almost hit him.. There and then he charged at me and gave me some heavy blows. I can still feel the weight of them to date.

Since then, I find refuge in sniffing cocaine. It makes me forget everything and is my number one best friend.

I  wholly blame that monster for defiling me and partly mom for not being there  to protect me.

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Well guys I really enjoyed writing this chapter as it is from Talia's point of view.
I wanted to make you guys understand the cause of her drug addiction.

Hope you enjoyed it .

And sorry for keeping you guys waiting  for this chaps.. well... I hope it was worth the wait..

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