Tempted By Darkness

Honor

"Why didn't you tell me, Athena?"

Alec was sitting on the edge of the bed. Hands scrubbing at his face in frustration.
Damn this woman. She made him feel useless. He wanted to be a man. Her man. The one she ran to after something bad happened. The one she confided in.
But no, she had to keep everything to herself. Suffer alone. Think about how to solve everything alone. Face her fears alone.

"There was no need to worry you. Hades is investigating. I can take care of myself. And you have other things to think about. It just was not-"

"Damn it, Athena! Can't you just rely on me sometimes?! Can't you trust me for once?! I am fucking tired to be the last to know about everything. You went to search for Christopher, and I was the last one to know. You almost died, Athena! I almost lost you! You knew you were carrying our child, and I was the last one to know-- no. Scratch that. If Elly had not called me, I would have not known at all. You were leaving, and I was the last one to know! I am not just a fucking walking cock! I want to be your man, I want you to be my woman. I am the father of the child you are carrying. This is not how a relationship works! I understand if it is difficult for you to get used to it, but you are not even fucking trying! FUCK!! " He stood up. The frustration was eating at him.
He knew loving her would not be easy, but damn, he might just give up if she did not start to at least see him as a man. As HER man.
And not a fucking sidekick she fucked whenever she felt like it.

He turned around to face her again. She was sitting there all confused and troubled and all he wanted to do was take all his harsh words back.
He dropped to his knees in front of her. Searching for something in her eyes. Anything. Anything that gave him the push to keep going.

"Have you even thought about what we discussed?" He was afraid of the answer. With Athena you never knew. Maybe she would be the first woman to break his heart.

She was studying him again with that look of hers. And for once, he wanted her drop this. Drop all the thinking. Drop everything and just focus on her own feelings.

" Talk to me, Athena. Stop thinking. Tell me what you feel. Please." He cupped her soft cheeks waiting, hanging on her lips.
But she was so closed up. She was not even looking at him. Her gaze lost somewhere behind him.

He dropped his hands, he had almost given up when she finally spoke.

"When you were away, I missed you." Her nose scrunched up in confusion "I think." He chuckled as he stared at her beautiful eyes, urging her to go on.

"I am always wondering what you are doing. If you are safe. If you will be visiting me soon. When I told you about our baby girl, I wanted you to be as happy as I was -"

"I would have been exhilarated either way, Athena."

"I know. I know, my gentle King. I was just looking for your approval. It was important to me. I don't know why." She gnawed at her bottom lip. Her hands brushing through his hair as he leaned into her soft touch. She was making him insane. "It does not matter how many times I see you, how many times I have you. Every time I look at you, you take my breath away. When you smile, it feels like the sun is beaming at me. It warms me. And there is always this pull at my heart, I do not comprehend. I love my father, I love Elly, I love my mother... But this feeling, I cannot explain. It is very similar to that, but it is also different in every way. You are so much different than I, Alec. And yet I find myself so very attracted to you. To your genuinity, to your kindness, to your gentleness. You treat me like a fragile flower and yet I am nothing near weak. And it makes my heart ache. It makes me want to be weak for a while, so that you can wrap your arms around me and tell me that I am safe." Her hand was shaking as she ran her thumb across his lips."And I am most happy that YOU are the father of our daughter."