Connected hearts [ticci Toby x reader]

[chapter 15]

Toby's POV

I was on my way to the mansion as I couldn't help but to smile by the thought of her. She makes me smile in a way that no one could.
Feeling happy and full I began to feel the slightest bit of blush on my face, it's strange that it comes to naturally to her...I miss her already...I miss her warmth...

It was around I would say about 8-ish so that means that the others must be having dinner. I opened the front door mansion and entered inside as I close the door behind me carefully as possible to not alarm them that I came. I quietly went up the stairs but unknowingly the fourth step creates a loud and I mean very loud 'creak' sound. The sound of the plates and civil-wear has stop clattering as they harken the sound of the creaky stairs. I paused in fear as slowly turned around to a annoyed masky, even though he was wearing his mask I can still he was pissed off.

"And where are you headed off to Rogers? You haven't eaten dinner" masky said as he scowled at me. I sigh and rolled my eyes in annoyance as the last thing I need is him to interfere with my personal life with [name].

"I was trying to finish m-my assignment, but got off track for a bit"

"Your assignment was to kill [name], not toy with her."

"Yea, yea I k-know"

"Is she dead?"

"Well w-what do you think?"

He then scoffed at my answer and went back to the dining table. I then sigh in relief and continue to walk up to my room. My same old, boring bedroom. I open the door as it creates that obnoxious loud 'creak', the room was dark as usual, and the moonlight was the only available light source. I sigh once again as I was bored and annoyed with the same old lifestyle. I plopped on my bed as herd the springs of the mattress as it reacts to my body weight. I looked at the alarm clock besides me.

It was 9:45...damn it...why couldn't I sleep?

I felt a weird empty feeling in my arms. Like the weight I previously had disappeared. Why am I like this? My thoughts where interrupted as I herd a voice from the opposite side of the room in the dark corner.

"Wellllllllll...how did it go??" In a instant I recognized that glitchy, obnoxious voice...It was Ben.

"H-How long where you waiting in my room *tic* in the d-d-dark?"

"Since yesterday, you weren't here so thought you've might've been in ya know who's house" he said with a pervy smirk. I groan in regret of telling him about [name]...

To be honest out of everyone in the mansion, I'm more closer to Ben as a friend. So of course knowing him he would just pop up unexpectedly and ask for a answer. Its something that he does.

"Soooo...tell me, did you guys did the dirty deed?"

"W-what?! *tics* No! I-It was more of a H-Hangout."

"Surrrrreee, hangout, date, what ever you call it" he said with sarcasm. I rolled my eyes in annoyance.

"But be honest...is she hot?"

"BEN!"

"I was just asking..."

Their was a small silence between us as I was bothered my his question, wanting to know about [name]. I mean yes she's attractive...with her soft skin...those beautiful [eye color] eyes that speak soft words with every glance or gaze....and her sent...the smell of lavender and vanilla is engraved in my memory...she's all I could think about...

"She is..."I said softly but enough for him to hear me.

"Really?"

"Yeah..."

"Hotter than your Ex Natalie?"

"Don't you dare bring that name ever again!"

"Dude, calm down...*sigh* it's just strange to see you with someone besides 'the one that shall not be named', you know? I mean you're with someone else who at least has their sanity and that's a good thing...just don't do something stupid, like, kill her or make her go insane...okay?" Ben said as he slowly gets off my bed and walks towards the door. He then paused and sigh again.

"I'm glad for you tob's...just don't do something stupid" he said as he smiles and left the room.

I then sigh and plopped on my bed as my chest was facing the ceiling and my arms we spread apart. I sigh in relief as I am now alone. Alone with my thoughts.

It's been over 3 months sense me and my ex broke apart. The reason why is because she couldn't handle being around me ever sense I choked her...and suffocated her...theirs countless times where I tried to harm her cause I thought it was my dad. But when I wake up. I see my hands around her neck as she gasp for air desperately. I can still remember he feeling I had.

Scared but yet relieved...

But now her and I are over, I have somebody else. Somebody else that is much more important to me. But yet I fear that I'll harm her. And that I loose her...forever...

You know you want to hurt her...soon or later she's gonna hurt you...just like how your dear old dad did...

"S-s-shut up!" I shouted to quiet the voices. I putted my hands over my ears to block the noise hoping that I don't have to hear their whispers. For a moment they stopped talking. I then slowly removed my hands off my ears in precaution. My room was in complete silence now. I sigh in relief feeling relax and at-ease, knowing that it's quiet and calm now.

My eyes feeling drowsy and droopy I took notice that I was getting tired. I couldn't care less that I didn't change into my PJ's, plus I was to lazy and tired to do it anyways. I then yawn loudly and drifted in are own world of imagination and fallen asleep...

(Just a reminder that Natalie is clockwork's actual name...okay that's all I have to say, also I made some very small changes in the book...so yea)