Connected hearts [ticci Toby x reader]

[chapter 7]

"I told you she isn't ready!"
Someone screamed from downstairs. I woke up immediately as it startled me. I looked around but I wasn't in my room, I recognize this old setting. I was in my old room. The bedroom door was slightly open, as it lets out a small seep of light.

"She's smart enough to go and be herself!"

"Have you been drinking again?! How many times do you must drink to fight with me? For the last time she's not ready to leave!"

"She's 18 She can leave! It's about time that mistake of yours leaves!"

"Take That back! You asshole!"

I didn't no longer want to hear their insults about each other, I had to interfere.

"Mommy?" I said, I took notice that my voice was higher, and height has gotten shorter. Am I a toddler?

"Oh! [name], sweetheart, why are you up so late? Staying up late can ruin your sleeping routine and education."

"Why are you and daddy fighting?"

"Nothing that you should be worried about, do you need help falling asleep?"

I nodded in response. My mother then lifted me up to her chest and took me up to my room.

"This isn't over..." my mother said as she scolded my father. He then tsk and left the house.

"don't worry [name], you're not gonna end up like you're hogwash of a father. You're gonna grow up and be successful."

"And if I fail?"

"Then I might as well have to disown you...that's why you have to be smart, and successful. I'm giving all the support you need, [name] don't let me down. That's all I ask...got it?"

"Yes mother..." my voice reverted to normal.

"Good...now be a good girl and wake up..."

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"Why can I ever have a normal dream?" I grunted. I continue with my daily routine, as always. I was walking into the small coffee shop and placed my order and waited, it also gave me time to look back and think about He dream occurrence I had.

Why now was I thinking about my past?

This is strange, I should be thinking about them.

They're irrelevant to me...

"Order for [name]." I look up and saw Nathan with my drink.

"Thank you."

"Hey, you don't look so well." Nathan said with a worried some tone in his voice.

"I'm fine, I just had a lot of work to do. Thats all. Anyways, bye have a good day."

I then left the cafe and made my way to campus.

-time skip-

"Alright everyone take a seat and take out your notes, today is gonna be a busy day." Mr.Walker said as he started writing today's lesson on the board. I groaned and placed my head on my desk, for some odd reason I feel more tiered then usual. I couldn't help but to feel drowsy, as I fallen asleep.

"I don't wanna be here!" I shouted at my mother.

"[name] you don't know what you are talking about! Theirs other universities that are much closer! Why on earth do you want to go out of state!? Especially Denver Colorado! That's too far!" Me and my mother were fighting rather if I should apply to a university that's closer to home or farther away from home, and I most definitely want to move far from home.

"Mom! I'm 18! I can make my own decisions."

"But why would you want to go so far?!"

"Are you kidding me?! I will do anything to get away from you and dad, aren't I your 'mistake'?"

"Is it because your father?"

"No! It's both of you!" I cried.

"Dad keeps getting drunk and calling me a mistake, and you! You have high expectations of me that I can't prosper! So that's why I'm leaving! To get away from you two!"

"[name] don't you dare leave this house!"

"Or what? Theirs nothing you can threaten me with, I'm leaving and that's final. Enjoy your pitiful life..." I then close the door and left my mother as she collapsed on the floor.

"Ms. [last name]!" It was Mr.Walker with a bothered face expression. My face flushed with red as I was embarrassed.

"Yes Mr.Walker?" I said in a rush.

"Answer to number seven? Or you weren't paying attention."

I was about to say something until the bell rang, I sigh in relief. I packed my stuff and was about to head out.

"Not you, we have some things to talk about."

-time skip-

Everyone left the class room...now it's just me and Mr.Walker...

"I've taken notice that you're sleeping a lot in class, is their trouble?" He asked. I know he's just being a teacher and looking out for his students but why me? I mean two rows above me a student sleeps during class as well.

"It's just late night studies, that's all." I said as I rubbed the back of my neck. I was obviously lying but I'm surprised that he hadn't noticed.
He then abruptly but his hand on my shoulder, as he was giving somewhat a tight grip. I couldn't help but feel uncomfortable, why was he being so nice?

"If you ever need to talk, you can always come to me." He then rubbed my shoulder as his thumb was slowly lining my bra strap.

"Umm yeah, sure...I should get going, have a good day..." I then stood up and walked out of the classroom.

For some odd reason I can tell what his intentions was...

It couldn't be that, right? He's just being a teacher and looking out for his students...

"Hey!" I heard a voice from behind. I look to see who it was and none of the less it was a happy Gabriella waving her hand as she's oblivious to her surroundings.

"I've been waiting for you!" She said as she smiles softly.

"Yeah I- hold on." I was cut off by the sound of my ringtone. Someone was calling me.

"Hello?...
Yes this is her...
...
...
Ok...thank for letting me know..."

I then hung up as what they called was to inform that my mother had died recently...and my dad was in prison as it was his doing that led her to her death.

"Who was that?"

"A spam, hey I have a lot of homework to do...is it ok if we can hang out tomorrow?"

"Yeah sure."

"Thank you, bye."

-time skip-

What it felt like hours of trying to hold my tears, I finally made it home. I locked the door and push my back against it as I began to sob uncontrollably. Letting out all my tears felt so good, yet so painful. My tears were slowly dripping down as they connected to my chin. My cheeks were red, along with my nose that was running. I couldn't help but to feel sad and anguished all at once.

The last word I said to her was 'enjoy your pitiful life.' And now...I can't take that back...
I was drowning in my own thoughts as more tears cam crawling down. I felt nothing but a guilt feeling in my chest as it runs through my body.

What now...what am I supposed to do now...