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idoforom. a pale yellow insoluble solid with a sweet antiseptic that's produced from ketones. that was the first thing that taehyung notice as he began to come to. idoforom. he sighed softly as he opened his eyes, not needing clarification of his location, already knowing he was in hospital. he should know, he's been admitted six times over the past two years, of course, he should know.
"fuck", he muttered, realising he survived.
groaning, he sat up in the bed and stared at his bandaged arm, chuckling bitterly, a wave of unknown anger bubbling up inside of him. he wanted to scream, to shout, to get out of the damn hospital but he couldn't. he just...couldn't.
he turned to his right and shrieked in surprise when he noticed a tall figure sitting slumped over, half asleep, hood pulled over their head and taehyung couldn't help but wonder who he was. all his previous saviours had never bothered to stay, yet there the man was, sitting and waiting for news on the silver-haired boy.
jeongguk jolted awake at the sound of someone shrieking. he blearily looked at the bed to find the silver staring at him from his perch. that's when the ravenette took in the honey-coloured doe eyes that the shorter had. to him, the boy's eyes held so many emotions, so complex, but not difficult to read.
that's what suicidal people were to him. a swirling storm of unknown, uncontrolled emotions.
he pulled the black hood off his face, revealing his face to the stranger and only offered a small raise of his eyebrows as they had a silent staring contest.
"why would you bring me here?", taehyung muttered, eyes pooling with tears as he clutched his left arm in his right hand, nervously licking his lips.
jeongguk's eyes darkened at the action, but he ignored the looming arousal and decided to answer the smaller's question. "you were on the verge of dying, i saw you from the moment you ran out of that building", the ravenette replied, voice monotone and void of any emotion. "had to do something."
"why would you do that?!", taehyung whisper screamed, he was angry, confused, but there was something else stirring deep inside him, something that made heat pool in his stomach and his heart flutter, his breath get ragged every time he looked the other in the eye.
"because you don't really want to die", jeongguk stated matter-of-factly, shrugging nonchalantly.
"you're not me", the silver hissed in reply, aggravated that this person has the nerve to just waltz into his life and tell him what he wants and doesn't want. "and, what? are seven suicide attempts not enough for me to prove to you that i really want to die? or do i need to try again?"
the ravenette stared at him, facial expression empty, but his eyes told everything. he was intrigued, but there was a sort of hidden knowledge there as well as if he was aware of something that he-- taehyung --wasn't.
"you don't really want to die", the latter repeated once again. "you just want to disappear until everything's okay again", he continued on when taehyung open his mouth to snap a snarky reply.
taehyung looked down, picking at the threads of the sheets as he mulled over the other's words in his head, realising with a heavy heart that he was right. he didn't really want to leave, he just wanted to forget the chunk of his life where everything wasn't okay and just move on, find happiness.
he tends to wake up and the first thing he does is look at himself in the mirror and wonder, how did i go from a bright, bubbly, always-happy five-year-old to...this?
"you're orphic", taehyung responded, looking at jeongguk with his doe eyes. "you're the first person to invest in me, actually bother to spend time with me. unlike the others. they would bring me here, then leave me alone. why would you do that?"
jeongguk sighed and got up from his place on the blue couch and sat on the edge of the latter's bed, bending his right leg slightly so that it rested right up against the other's blanketed leg. he licked his lower lip before dragging it through his teeth.
"you...intrigue me", the ravenette responded. "you and the way you dress, you look chaotic, you act chaotic, but i can tell, i can tell you're actually serene. you have a love for things that calm you and love for words. you're a logophile, aren't you?"
a soft smile adorned taehyung's features as he heard the taller's description of him, a fluttering feeling forming in the pit of his stomach. the way the other was so observant, the way he just knew that taehyung loved words, it made him feel wanted, which was something he hadn't felt in a long time, ever since he and his best friend-- jimin -- got into a fight over whether or not jimin's boyfriend was good for him.
"you're right", the silver whispered, looking the latter square in the eyes. "i am a logophile."
taehyung flushed pink at the compliment, hands instinctively going up to cover his face, a habit of his for whenever he got shy. he always loved when people complimented him, he never really got compliments as a young child.
"taehyung", he whispered softly. "kim taehyung."
"jeon jeongguk", the tall raven-haired boy replied. "22."
"taehyung", the doctor stated, pushing up his glasses. "this is the seventh time in two years. i suggest you get help."
"i don't want help", the shorter hissed, feeling tears sting his eyes.
"taehyung-"
"no!", he shouted. "and that's final!"
"we'll be keeping you for the next two days", the doctor sighed, walking out of the room with a clipboard.
jeongguk watched him leave with a blank expression, thinking that the man was still going to get help for the latter anyway, even if taehyung opposed to it every way. jeongguk knew that the smaller probably wouldn't want help because therapists don't always work for everyone. for some, those 'so-called' professionals make things worse.
"tae", he whispered, making the smaller look at him, humming in question. "let's escape", a lopsided grin making its way onto his face when he noticed the excited, happy glint in the latter's eyes.
"tonight?', he whispered back.
"tonight."
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and that's all she wrote!
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