𝓦𝓮 𝓫𝓮𝓬𝓪𝓶𝓮 𝓼𝓽𝓻𝓪𝓷𝓰𝓮𝓻𝓼

Chapter 9-It's all my fault

*Addison's POV*
After she left i started grabbing my clothes and threw them on the bed.I couldnt keep myself so i layed there and her scent invaded the room.I looked around and all the things that happened in that room crossed my mind.Am i gonna get through this? Probably no.i start crying again when Charli enters the room.
"Addi...." she says sitting on the bed,near me.Charli is such a good friend,i dont deserve her.
"How did you know i was there?"i say getting up.She must've saw my puffy eyes cause she pulls me into a tight hug and doesnt let me go.Soon enough i start crying again and she doesnt say a word.Just hugs me.
"I lost her forever" i say
"Addi do not think like this.Also,you can stay here as much as you want.Dixie said she is moving out tonight" she says carassing my hair.
I didnt want Dixie to move out.But i didnt want to see her either.My life is such a mess.
"Thanks for announcing me"
"Come on lets go"she says grabbing my hand and guiding me out of the room.
"Charli,where are we going?"
"You'll see"
"Charli i dont want to go anywhere look at me.Im basically DESTROYED "i shout
"Its a surprise that will make you feel better" she replies
We enter her and Avani's room and there they are; the girls with popcorn and blankets.
"I thought we can have a girls night but you can cry it all out" Char says with a light inside her eyes.
"Thank you so much" i say hugging all of them."Thats a great idea actually" i say going to my- well mine and Dixie's room to grab some clothes.
When i enter the room she is there.Dixie is there.She grabs all her clothes and throws them into a suitcase.Oh my god- is she crying? Even tho she broke my heart i cant leave her like that so i sit on the bed and look at her in the face.
"What is wrong?" i ask her.Its so damn hard to have this conversation right now because it reminds me of everything.But i wanna be there for her.I want to make sure she is alright,even if im not.
"Im ok."she says wiping her tears.We both know she is not alright.
"No,youre not" i say grabbing her face to see if she has done anything.She has big red puffy eyes and all her mascara is flowing down.
"Let me go Addison!Why do you still care? Why do you still care if im okay? Why do you still face me?" she says as she turns her back.
"Because i love you!" i shout.Its true,even after all she did i still loved her.
"Just stop loving me! I was a jerk stop loving me!"she yells back
"I can't!"
Dixie looks at me and i look at her but thats all.She grabs her luggage and leaves the room but not without telling me something.
"Take care of yourself and never think about me" she whispered in my ear.She still cares.But everything she told me, everything that happened say the opposite.
I try to forget the conversation i had with her when i get a text from Charli.

damelioc: Addi are you ok?
addison_e: yeah im fine just taking more clothes
damelioc: oh and the clothes are about my sister shouting right?
addison_e: im coming and you all will find out everything.

I will have to explain it.
As soon as i enter the room all of them start dragging me near them and say.
"Tell.Us.Everything.Now"
"Well i would but i dont even know what happened"
"Addison" Charli says knowing im lying.
"Ok.Well i was going to grab some clothes when i saw Dixie was in the room too,but it didnt seem like Dixie-Dixie.It was a heartbroken,destroied,hurt,lost Dixie,a girl that i never saw before.I asked her what happened but she said she was ok(obviously) and i didnt give up because i know her very very well and i know when something is wrong.She then shouted at me and asked why i still care and to stop loving her.But the truth is that i cant. I dont think i can.Not right now.Although all that happened she still cares about me and thats all that matters. Dix whispered in my ear to take good care of myself and to stop thinking about her. But after this,im not gonna stop fighting for her.I need to know the truth and im not just gonna let go." i say not tearing up this time.Everything i said was true: imma fight till my last breath. I need to know what is going on with her because its obviously all she told me when we broke up,was fake.I could still feel the connection that we have even if we were broken up,sad and lost.Because thats something you dont find easily.
"Im in a good mood again"i say smiling.I was because at least i knew she was lying to me that day.
"Great! Lets watch a movie then" Amelie says grabbing the remote and jumping on the bed.
We watch Netflix for some hours and then we all fall asleep.I am woken up by the sound of my phone notifications. Suddenly all of the fans are asking if me and Dixie broke up.Oh shit i didnt tell them I figured it out it would be necessary to tweet or post something because if me or her gets with somebody new,they will think we are cheating or something.But i dont think that will happen.

whoisaddison: A breakup is like a broken mirror. It is better to leave than risk hurting yourself trying to pick up all of the broken pieces....
@dixiedamelio

But i know we arent over.Not yet.Not until i find out what the hell is going on and whats Dixie up to.Because i cant let her go.

I FUCKING LOVE ALL OF YOU GUYS YOU ARE ALL THE BEST IM SO GRATEFUL FOR EVERY SINGLE ONE OF YOU.also this is chapter 8 hope you liked it its kinda short.sorry for any grammar mistakes i didnt proof read this.