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The Secret Room

"It is so fucking hot in this bus" said Josh... "Can we open the window?" asked Josh. "No! You don't want to do that...". You really don't want to do that, because, last time I opened it, the same bus driver was shouting at me the whole way until we came to my bus station. It felt like the longest ride I have ever had in my entire life... I was sweating, I was shaking, I though that I will explode before we even come. "Calm down James, it will be alright". Me seeing him smiling with his sweet face gave me some confidence, so I kept it calm. We got off the bus, so I got the panic attack again. "I live only 2 streets apart, so we will be there in a minute". As we were walking, there was a group of 6 guys, maybe in their 19s or 20s walking on the other side of the street. "Don't look at them if you want to live" I said, and we continued to walk. I was feeling kinda like shit, I mean, I was born here, and Josh comes to this place for the first time his entire life and I'm scared as fuck, and Josh? He just walks smiling, he doesn't give a simple fuck. Was he just pretending not to care and was actually really scared, or is he some kind of sociopath? I don't know, but there is something special in him. "Well, here I live...". "Omg, this building looks really cool!". Was he just kidding with me right now? Bitch this building looks like a cheap used dildo from eBay, and you think it's cool... OK. "Well, just wait to see the elevator..."I said, and then started to laugh. At that moment I forgot about all the danger. "Sooo, we have to use stairs?" he said watching me really confused. "Yeah, it is how it is...". He looked at me for a moment, then started to run up the stairs "Who comes first to your apartment wins!". That bitch! I started to run, I was devastated "I should stop smoking" I thought to my self. After 5 minutes of running, I started to laugh so hard. HE WENT TO THE 30th FLOOR! "I think I am the winner here" I was laughing while opening the doors of my apartment. We were then both laughing, and he entered my apartment too. We sat on my bed and were calm for a second. I got chills, I didn't know what we are going to do, what will happen? Will something happen? Will we just talk, or kiss as usual, or maaaybe, something more? I saw him, he was also in his mind. Maybe he was thinking the same. We were just sitting there, listening to Billie Eilish, idontwannabeyouanymore... With that song, it really felt like we were at some romantic funeral, like, literally. He looked me in the eyes. I was just about to say something, but I was interrupted because he started to kiss me. It was kinda relief, because my brain got empty of my thoughts. It was fun, I had such a weird feeling in my stomach, like if I was going to explode from the whole love. I saw him, wanting to do more... I felt ready... I mean like, I was kinda scared, but that feeling of love was stronger. I turned to the window, and the curtains where there. Even tho I'm kinda like, really high up in the sky, I was scared. The touch of his fingers and the kisses on the body made me feel like as if I was in heaven. I felt so relaxed and happy at that moment. I forgot about my mother, about my town, about anything... Everything was so not important at the moment. I felt like the strongest person in the world. I was in the fucking mood. I was thinking... Why didn't we do this before? And will we do it ever again? All those thoughts came at that moment but my love was trying to block them all and let me enjoy. At some moment I wanted to cry... I don't know why... Happiness? Being turned on? Too much pressure? I don't know, but I was sure that I wasn't sad. At that moment, I had my first orgasm ever. It felt like God giving me a visa approval to go to heaven... I stopped crying, but all the feelings were there, but I had no thoughts anymore. We were just laying in bed, looking at each other and smiling. We were laying there for like an hour or so, and I still didn't give any fuck about anything. I didn't want to leave my bed... I wanted this to last forever... And then, I started to cry again, but now, because I was really sad. He kissed me, he said everything will be alright. We finally dressed up, and I went to make us some coffee. "What is this?" he asked me. "Telescope" he was watching me so confused, like bitch have you never heard about telescope? "Let me show you" I pointed my telescope to the window of the Dangerous Building. And yeah, I also watch stars, like every night, I'm not that kinda stalker ok? "Now, that building is the most dangerous building here, so I am giving you advice, if you ever want to do a tour here, NEVER go near that building". "Oh, look, we can see some junkies smoking weed there" I was laughing... Then I gave him the telescope, so he can see fascinating view... No, it's actually not interesting, it is sad. After I gave him that telescope, something that he said changed my life totally... I felt like someone just stabbed me with the sharpest knife ever. "James, look over here, they are pointing fingers at us..." WHAT THE FUCK!? How the fuck can somebody point fingers at us? Like, they can barely see my window, I use telescope, so I could see what they're doing, there is nooo way... "That is not happening right now, they cannot see us. Maybe they are pointing at something else? This just cannot be true" I couldn't believe, but then I thought again... To whom can they even point? Why would they point at us? Are we like going to die? Bitch, I had one of my happiest days ever, I don't wanna die today. "Omg, they are disappearing..." After seeing them going somewhere I really got a panic attack. "if they are going to come here by foot, it will take them 15 minutes, with car? 3-4 minutes... Omg we are fucked Josh, we have to hide!". "But, what if they are actually not coming to us?" "How can we know?". Literally, how? At that moment, I got the best idea ever. "Josh, I am going to show you the most amazing thing in the world" I was so happy that I remembered that we have a secret room in this apartment. When I was like, 10 or so, I was jumping in my room, then I was a little confused... Why does it feel life if there is some space under my floor. The floor was made out of the wood, boards... I saw one, and I tried to pick it up. It was really hard to pick it, I tried it 100 times, and it didn't work. I wanted to give up, but I saw one metal rod. I was a clever kid, so I put it in the space between boards till the rod got stuck up in there. Then I was pushing it, aaaand... I got the board off. I was shocked, because I saw 1 meter difference between the real floor and my floor. I got under the wooden floor and on the right side I saw some kind of doors... And when I opened them... I saw one room. I was surprised, I wanted to call my mother to see it too, but I was thinking and decided, that this will be my little secret. The room wasn't empty, The room had a little bed, a desk and ancient lamp. I was just amazed by the whole thing. I was looking at the desk, and I was wondering what could be on it. When I saw it, I literally was even more surprised. There were all the drawings from my grandpa, drawings from like 300 buildings from this town. As I kid, I was really amazed, but now, I am even more. That little cagey bitch! He was the one that designed the building where I live. He designed most off the Town, but why was he so obsessed with the Dangerous Building? Idk, but I was going every day for 4 years to my secret room to watch those drawings of those buildings... That is why I know every part of this town, even tho I visited like 5% of the streets. I used that room for studying, and for playing, but I never thought of using that room to basically... Save my life. I took the board off "Josh, go down there!" "Wtf is down there?" said Josh. "You will see, now hurry up!". We both got under the floor. I carefully put the board again where it should be, so that no-one can find out where we actually are. The face expression he made was priceless. "Omg, what is this place?" "Well, it is just a simple room where my grandpa spent most of time before he died I guess... But now, it is our room for surviving". I felt scared, we were in that room for 5 minutes, I was just thinking about... Did they really pointed at us? Are we in real trouble? What if we are not? What if Josh breaks up with me because he thinks I'm just a stupid fool? And what if it is real, what if they find us? Omg how will my mom react when she finds out that I'm dead? I had so many questions, I was bitting my nails... Where Josh looked kinda worried, I mean, who wouldn't he? WE ARE MAYBE GOING TO DIE! But like for real, he looked worried, but in the different way, I don't know why, I didn't care that much about his face, I wanted to survive. But then, I heard someone knocking on the main door. I froze. "Are you shitting me?" Josh said. I couldn't see anything, everything went blurry, and the knocking became like echo... I fainted. Next thing I remember waking up near Josh. He was giving me sign to shut up. I could here 2 guys speaking, and one throwing some stuff away. I started to pray to God, I was speechless. After 10 minutes, someone was leaving, and the silence began. I was confused, and Josh said that we should leave, but something in my mind told me that someone is still inside the apartment. "No, let us stay here for a bit longer, life is more important than time". Now, I wasn't scared, I was angry, who the fuck comes to my apartment and throws my stuff away? Who gave you that power? I didn't know what to do. "James, I could call the police" he said with hope. "It will not help, police is too much afraid to do literally anything here". And that is the true fact, and fucking sad fact. "I can tell my father that I will spend night with you, so he thinks everything is alright, and in the morning, we can check if somebody is there, if nobody, we are leaving this place". I couldn't think of any better idea, so I agreed with him. After 3 hours, I could hear someone turning the TV on in the living room. I knew it! People here do not give up that fast. After some hours later, we agreed to sleep. Even tho I was near Josh, I couldn't fall sleep, I was too afraid, but, on the other hand, Josh was sleeping just like a baby. He looked so cute and sweet, which gave me some hope, that we will survive, and get out of this together...

It was 8AM... and I heard someone speak again. I opened the small doors really quietly because I didn't want them to hear me, but I wanted to hear them... At that moment, I was under the floor and I could hear them talk really clearly, and after I heard what they're actually talking about, I froze... I felt like a piece of shit. "We have to kill this fag!". LIKE WHAT! How do they know that, Nobody in this town, except my mom, knows that I'm gay, and when I'm in the City, I'm trying my best to hide it. This makes no sense to me, and even when Josh and me had sex, they couldn't see us, maybe with telescope, but guess what? The curtains where there, they couldn't have seen shit. This really bothers me, and to see that there is 90% of me getting killed is really upsetting. I have to escape from this town. But how? I'm still not 18 and I don't want to end up on the streets, and 2. What will happen with my mom? Will they try to hurt her? How can I convince her to leave this town with me? She is coming tomorrow, I have literally no idea of what could happen. I heard them leaving, nobody was staying in the house, everybody left. I was kinda happy, because there is a way to escape. I was still wondering how did they found that out, I mean, my room looks like basic boy room, so I don't know, I need to wake up Josh... "Babe, they are gone... Let's get our asses out of here". Josh was really confused at that moment, but I understood that, I mean he just woke up. I pushed the board and we came out. I took my backpack really fast and put my most important things in there. Just when I opened the doors, I heard some voices. They were on the 7th floor. I knew the option of staying in the apartment was really bad, but luckily, I got a great idea. On the elevator was a sign which says "out of order", but I had the keys for the elevator. I opened them quickly and we entered the elevator. I locked the elevator right away, and waited there for a minute. Now, I got adrenaline, I was hyped up, I wasn't scared, I had some weird feeling. After 2 minutes, 3 guys came and entered my apartment to search me. "You fucking piece of shit, tell me again you heard something and nothing is there I will literally kill you, you piece of shit". The guys left. I wanted to laugh, but if I did, then they would actually hear me, so I kept it calm. After 10 minutes of waiting, we got the balls and left the elevator. I was shocked... Worse than a jump scare... My neighbor! The cat lady was standing just in front of me. I thought I will literally get heart attack, like lady, move the fuck away, I don't want to die because of you too! "I told you yesterday the elevator is not working, why are you in there?". Omg, such a relief. "Silly me, someone had rough night, we will take stairs..." We laughed and then Josh and me left. I just wanted to leave that fucking building, I had enough of it. "Finally, exit doors" I wanted to jump and scream because I was so happy... I succeeded it, I survived! But... What now? Like really, what now? I have no fucking idea, I will not stay in the same building, I don't want my mom and me to suffer, we already suffered enough, just by living in this hell, I want both of us to live in the City, the safe place, being everyday happy, am I really asking too much? "Let's go to The City, to our favorite Café, and we can then try to find best plan for you and your mother, staying longer here can only get us in trouble..." said Josh trying to give me some hope. I love him, he is such a sweetheart, we got through this together, like as if we were married, but we are not, our relationship is just so strong, he just knows what to do, to make me happy, hopefull, sad, or even how to get orgasm... Ok, that is too much, but like, he is like a God for me. "Holy shit, we are so fucking lucky, the bus is coming in 3 minutes" I said, feeling much better than before. I lit my cigarette... "Bitch, bus comes in 2 minutes..." said Josh thinking that I was retarded. "It is 9AM, the driver that drives between 8-11AM doesn't care about shit". Which is actually true. 3 years ago, a guy was beating his wife in the bus, the same driver didn't even care, not even trying to call police, the guy literally hates his job, he just wants to get his money, which is for me acceptable, because, living in this town, you can even be lucky to get a job... Sooo... Yeah, it' sad, I know. "You look really bad bitch while smoking cigarette" said Josh while he was looking at me in a sexy way, which kinda turned me on... And the bus came, so we entered the bus and were praying to come safely to The City...