So I was going through this story and forgot i had written a chapter of her getting with josh but i decided to not post it because the story was about tony and this chapter had the story leaning towards her getting with josh but i just thought i'd share it now bc why not.
After i pulled away from the kiss. Josh asks if everything was good. I realized it wasn't. I knew i loved Josh, but my feelings for Tony never went away. I thought long and hard about what i wanted but i didn't know. "i-i..." i don't get anything else out. I start bawling my eyes out. Josh quickly hugged me and grabbed my hand leading me to my room. He sat my on my bed and asked once again,"What's wrong?" I didn't answer. I just looked at him. He could tell something wasn't right between us, "Is it about us, do you not like me, or..." he says nervously. My eyes quickly glance up, i grabbed his chin, "No! Of course I like you Josh" "There's just a slight problem" i continue. "Just know I would never be mad, unless your like still in love with Tony" he says jokingly. I look at him shocked. I stay there speechless, i thought to myself "how, how could he have possibly guessed the one thing". I still don't say anything. All of a sudden he covers his mouth and shakes his head. "Y/n you have got to be kidding me" He looks at me disappointed. "No Josh please don't leave" i say as my voice breaks barley getting those words out. "No, no i can't do this, i'm not going to sit here and waste my time, just for you to still live the guy who broke your f**king heart" he says while getting very angry. "Look Josh, calm down" i try telling him. "No i'm done goodnight" he says storming out of the room. I just say there not knowing what to do. I sat there for what felt like hours. Just sitting there lifeless. As soon as i went to get up i fell. Picking myself back up, i head downstairs. I walked into the kitchen to find a guy passed out with a bottle of liquor in his hand. I noticed a small puddle of something red. I think it's blood. I run over to the guy flipping him over. It was josh. It looked like he fell. I shake him "Josh, josh wake up please" i say worried. He wasn't waking up. I yell "help!! someone call and ambulance" everyone comes rushing in to see what's happening. Ondre came running over and i jump up hugging him. Finally the ambulance arrives taking Josh to the hospital. Ondre and I followed.
*later at the hospital*
"y/n and ondreaz lopez" the doctor said calling out names. We both rushed over. "You can see him now, but he's still unconscious" the doctor continues. We head back to a room before we walk in the doctor told us everything that was to be expected. Walking in we saw josh laying on the hospital bed. I slowly walk over and sit on the bed. "Josh, i know you can't hear me, but the doctor said everything was all right" "you scared me, i know i said i still love tony but the thought of losing you made me realize, i love you and only you" i say as tears fall down my face. "just promise me you fight threw this, i don't want you lose you. I know it's all my fault. I messed up" i continue while holding Josh's hand. You get up and walk over to Ondre who was waiting in the doorway. "I messed up big time Dre" i say leaning on his shoulder. He rubs my back and says "this wasn't your fault". As we were leaving i hear someone say my name. I turn around to see Josh awake. I run back to him and give him the biggest hug. "Whoa whoa easy tiger" he says laughing. "Sorry" i say wiping the tears from my eyes. He begins to say, "i forgive you". I give him a confused look. Me realizing he heard everything i said. "did you do this on purpose" i say trying to be mad. He replies with "no but it kinda worked out that way" he laughs. I punch him lightly on the arm. "hey i'm going to head back" i hear ondre say. "okay i think i'm going to stay the night with Josh" i tell him as he's leaving.
Sitting on the bed next to Josh made me forget all about my feelings for Tony. I lean my head on his shoulder. I hear him say "i love you y/n" "i love you too Josh" i say back. After that we both fell asleep.
