Can You Hear Me?

Inaudible.1

No i don't want a hearing aid.
It doesn't help.
I still can't hear.
I don't want to hear the hurtful words.
Criticism.
I don't need to hear it.
I'm fine like this.
No.

Looking at 13 year old Park Dae-Hyun's notebook hurts. It reminds me of how i felt back then. How lonely i was and the pain i felt. Can't believe i am where i am today. I hope 엄마 is proud of me.

I feel a tap on my shoulder. "Mr. Park" Assistant James signed . Why would she just barge in at this time? "You have an interview for Sam's new assistant" she rushed. 
"Why do i have to interview this new person" i signed back. "Sam is late.." She gestures. "Bring them in quickly". Sam is always so careless, we are polar opposites. That man is unfortunately my younger brother.

Aria
  "You didn't tell me this man was deaf!!" I whisper yell. "No, his brother is ok" Julie explains. "You might run into him though, learning ASL wouldn't be a bad idea". Silence was all i heard after that sentence. "Hello?" "You there?" This girl is too much to handle. "Ms. Jackson?"  The woman in formal clothing called. "Yes, i'm right here" i stand from the chair i was sitting on. "Sorry, Mr. Sam is running late so you'll be meeting with Mr.Park" Mr.Sam?!? Mr.Park...Right they're brothers that makes sense. "Ok, No problem!" She walks out the waiting area and stops.

"Are you coming?" she asks. "Yes sorry" I responded embarrassed as I followed the woman. "You know ASL, correct?" she asks, am I so desperate for a job that I say yes.. "Y-Yes of course!" "Perfect here is his office, You may go in." I open the dark door and head inside, it was way bigger than i expected. The whole building is beautiful, thanks to that fake resume i might be able to work here. Mr. Park turns around and just stares at me. He was looking me up and down. I don't really dress so formal, but the way he's looking at me makes me want to do it often. He points to
the chair and I sit in it. He starts moving his hands, he wouldn't last a day in the hood doing all that. I almost forgot he was deaf, I was staring at this man's face until something so sensual came out if his mouth. "Don't you know ASL?" He spoke to me. I expected his voice to be muffled a bit, but it was like he was calling for me, like i was being pulled in by his voice. "Ma'am are you okay?" He asks. "Yes" i answer, he looks closely at lips so he can lip read but it made me feel like he wanted to do something inappropriate with me. "I don't know ASL sorry i- "It's Ok" he mouths. "Come back tomorrow to meet with my brother" he spoke. "Okay" I say as run out and try to find a bathroom. Am i going crazy? I feel like i just got caught watching something i wasn't supposed to.

엄마-mom