Bad Paradox

CHAPTER 1 - Monster Since Birth

Levi's POV

Usually, people tend to be sad when someone who touched their heart... suddenly bid farewell. How weird of me.

I was seven years old...

"M-MONSTER!" Sweat and tears coming from her as she points me out, referring me as a monster.

"H-HOW CAN YOU... HOW CAN YOU KEEP CALM AT THIS SITUATION?!" My auntie. She continues to point at me, embarrassing me at the front of all these guests wearing black.

Black? Situation?

Right... It was... the death of my mother. Tanya Haste. I vaguely remember this scene... but the words were sharp it pierced other people. Of course, I reacted with a poker face.

"TEARS... NO TEARS... Y-YOU... DEFICIENT MONSTER!" Veins started to show at her face, gritting her teeth as others try to quiet him down by words regarding my mother.

Silence inside was run. But... does my silence affect anybody else? It was stupid of me to think at that time.

I tried to reminisce some more words.

"I'll be keeping him."

Those words were strictly denied by the present people. Their presence alone defies me at that time. With such looks as if they're disgusted to have someone a 'monster' blood-related. After minutes of persuading... I remember...

I remember how my grandma took me.

"What are you doing? Why are you dizzly-dazzly at the window, are you finally amazed by a gorgeous lady?" No knocks at the door. It was my grandma who took me in. Her crispy voice tells me so. "As if you will be fantasized!"

A mock from her does not work. You could say I'm used to it or... I actually could not react.

"Hm... Just reminiscing the past." I replied and stayed at my position furthermore.

"There's nothing you can reminisce..." She mocks, but words blended with empathy and care. I'm sure of it. I may not feel... but I've been taught common sense.

"There is." I closed my eyes as if I could feel the breeze of the wind hitting my face. To clear my mind and remember.

"Oh, dear boy. Tell me."

"It was the day..." I paused for a second. That was the day I am supposed to be sad, but I could not. "...the day you died," I whispered.

I opened my eyes and faked a smile. Except for my mother's death, her death haunts me the most. I always tell myself that I may not feel, at least I got the common sense. I now live alone with fortunes, legacy, and titles granted by my grandma. Not only me but her family as well.It was long since I understood how others live. And... how lucky I am in their eyes.And it was also long since the day I've started to see such events as a cycle.

"I should get ready. I'm fooling myself." I started dressing. Of course, school uniforms. First day of school at Karasuno High School. I feel excited. As if.

"How should I introduce myself? Maybe I should already tell my handicaps?" I planned while going towards the school. It was noisy at the entrance gate and pretty decent as well- which

definitely could be seen at the uniforms. The logo itself stands out.

I started to feel that I will suck my first time being an ambivert. I also wondered... how am I now if only I wasn't born this way?

"E-excuse me!" A girl ran over me. Aaaandd didn't even pay any attention. She carries and overloaded things on her hand... foods and such.

But... that girl changed my perception.