Bad Paradox

CHAPTER 10 - Hide

Shakai's POV

"I'm home." I said sluggishly. My mother is in her usual seat facing the mirror while she carress her face and applying make-up. We are supposed to be looking good in front of a customer to give us a better rating.

"Prepare yourself!" She said. I got into my room and covered my black eye and my swollen face with a bandage. I've been doing this since the first time she recommends me into Mr. Kratz. I did not have any tests or such and just directly satisfied my first customer. I was 10 years old at that time. My first customer was a lunatic adult who fantasizes young children ranging from ages 10-17. That is what he said. I was the perfect woman to fulfill his sexual desires, he said. He is but a lunatic and a sex offender who promotes child pornography inside the famous bar. I haven't seen him since. But he left me one phrase before he completely disappeared. "I will make money to also make you mine." I actually do not want to see him more. He disgusts me. He caused me into something incompetent other than my mother. He toyed with me without showing satisfaction until the end.

"What are you doing, you are taking so lo-" She opened the door and was surprised to see my swollen face. She did not see it when I walked because she is facing the mirror, and it did not reflect my face as she I am heading towards my room. "WHAT HAPPENED TO YOUR FACE!?

"I-I..." She slaps me before I can even state my side. She calls for her personal men who takes us into the bar.

"MEN!" The buffed men from the outside immediately responds. They are basically our drivers and also our bodyguards. No... my mother's bodyguard... and her tool to use against me. "DRAG HER TO THE STORAGE ROOM!"

"B-but, Madame, why?" They complained while holding my arms and forced me to stand up and walk by myself.

"SHUT UP!" She said with an irritated face, "YOU... YOU ARE FINALLY USEFUL, YET THIS IS WHAT I GET BACK!?" She said while she futher assaults me with a kick while she is wearing a high heels.

It does not even hurt. I'm... completely numb.

"M-madame... stop." He was stopped by one of the men which was also reinforced by the other men.

"GET HER FACE OUT OF ME!" She commanded while she took out her phone and made a call. "S-shit... How do I explain this to Mr. Kratz." She bites her nail non-stop and asked for Mr. Kratz's permission to let me take my day-off for today and also, probably for another days.

"She has been working hard these past few days and her rating is the proof, so she deserve a break." Mr. Kratz said over the line. I was supposed not to pleasure men everyday. But I was forced by my own mother to make it everyday to pay all our unpaid debts.

"FORTUNATELY!" She thanked Mr. Kratz beforehand. She shouted and commanded every man present to take me finally to the storage room. Even when Mr. Kratz agreed, she did not flee from her decision.

"B-but madame..." One of the guy complaint. I can't move my body due to those solid kicks with high heels. To be frank, I've been leaking saliva... I can't... freaking breath. I catch my breath as hard as I can. Fortunately for me, these guys are gentleman enough to defend me in this tough situation.

"You can do what you want to her! She needs a lesson!" The men was confused. But they started to look at me like a thirsty dog cleansing their lips with their tongue, thinking of something... terrible.

"NO... NO... NO! MOTHER! PLEASE NO! I'LL... NEVER DO IT AGAIN! MOTHER PLEASE!... please..." I begged for mercy but she shuts the door and I was brought in the storage room.

Everyday... is a rape scene for me.

"Your turn." I am somewhat concious yet my mind is blank. They are passing me to each other as they toy with my body all over. They looked like dogs in heat and every moan they made is like they are fulfilling their sexual desire.

"P...p-please..." I started saying while they continue their thing. They force their lips and touched my body and stick their disgusting body part on me as they grope and take away my sexual impurity.

Sexual... impurity, huh. I've... lost that long ago.

"STOP! PLEASE!" I screamed out of despair but they refused to stop. They sticked my underwear into my mouth to stop my loud voice. It is like... asking help in hell. Screaming in abyss.

They left me naked in the cold ground and left only but a hoodie to atleast warm my body. H...help. I need somebody to end my sufferrings. To end...

My life.

"That was good!" They said as they leave me here with teared clothes and a used hoodie, chained arms and feet with a rope, and still the unkept underwear from my mouth.

What... even is life for? Is it for something like this? Do I need to suffer this much? Why do I have to suffer this much?

No tears left me. It was just pure misery of my dead emotions. I felt nothing but being fully conquered by despair. I have been into an endless pit in my life.

At the middle of the night which I call despair, I suddenly remembered my encounter with a hard-headed classmate. 

"GET UP, LICK MY SHOE!" I still can remember even the words they said clearly. They are throwing punches, kicks and even rock solid things at me. I licked their shoe for no particular reason, and it has been going on for years. It was Ana with his usual hobby, to bully. Their target was always the fragile me. Their reason:

"Your face needs some surgery."

That is their only respond. She was... once... nevermind. That was all an act. I refused to lick her shoe, what a stupid act of me. If I've licked her shoe, then I wouldn't be raped and left here in the dark with no clothes and blanket.

"SHIT! YOUR FACE DISGUSTS ME!" I was literally crawling in the ground that time. The people in the cubicles began to ran as they do not want to experience being exacted by those hard hits. "YOU DESERVE IT, BITCH!"

"STOP!" I shouted and begged. A person interfered her incoming slap. It was not her slaves. An unknown man with a grinning face as wide as a fake mask. I remember him. He is Ryan Sebas. The man who was always with Levi... and my boss's alleged adopted son.

"That's too bad, you're the bitch." He said to Ana, "I captured everything at my phone, want to see it?" Ana made her way and left the restroom. She clicked her tongue before commanding her girls to leave.

"You okay?" He asks me while I am in the corner weeping myself.

"Y-you... shouldn't be here." I do not want anyone to be with me. I bring... an unfortunate luck. I deserve to disappear.

He gave me a heavy sigh, "I also do not understand why that guy Levi fancy you."

"W-what does... he have to do... with me?" I lifted my head and tried to stand up.

"He said to check who's inside."

"T-then... why did you stopped her?"

"I simply hate her." He smiled at me and goes out of the restroom. On his way, "Argh, he even made me go inside a female's restroom. There was no one here, how thankful I am." He thanked nobody.

"Levi said that he saw himself in you, so you should also see yourself in him." He said while he holds the doorknob and carefully opened it. That was the time... I had high hopes.

But seems like now's the time I should feel despair.

"S-SHIIITTTT! FUCK IT! I AM WHO I AM! I AM... MY OWN PROPERTY!"

I waited until morning to find an open opportunity to unlock these shackles.After taking more than thousands of second...

"CHASE HER!"

"Huff... Huff..." I started running my way in the middle of an open highway. Yet, not even one person dared to interrupt the chasing.

"CATCH HER!" My mother remained to command her assigned men to chase me from running away.

"Huff... I'm... done with their shits." I said in my own. If I see an alley, I run into it. Fortunately, I was able to escape by pretending as dead and stopped my breathing for seconds. They lost their guard and I hit their balls. Bullseye.

"S-shit... I... can't shake them off!" My stamina is running low and it is almost dark. I need to hide... elsewhere.

RUN... RUN! DAMN LEGS... MOVE... MOVE! DON'T STOP! DON'T STOP! RUN! GODDAMIT!

"BEEEEEEP!" A honk was to be heard. It was a black car coming into me. It stopped before it reached me. A forced stop that made the tires go wild. But... that shit ain't got nothing to do with me!

I continue to run into an alley and hid in a dumpster. It stinks as hell, but damn it!"Where is she! If only that car did not delay us!" Their footprints were to be heard. They continue their pursuit. There are three men who chased me, missing one person whom I kicked in the balls.

After a long time, I got up. It was already dark. I did not notice how long I was hiding but it seems like more than an hour passed. Yet my heart remains on its fast-paced pump.

I wander everywhere... finding food with dead eyes, only wearing a red hoodie and straight underwear with a tired body.

"F...food." I marched while I beg for food. I had dry lips since I had even no water to taste.

"T-THERE SHE IS!" I looked back just to see these couple of men not giving up their pursuit. I ran into an alley and stumbled upon someone.

"WHAT THE HELL!" I shouted but covered my mouth right away. I lifted my head to run yet I saw one familiar face. "L-LEVI!?"

"Oh, Ryoko. Why didn't you-" I skipped him up and dragged him into an alley. SHIT, DAMN IT! I'VE LEFT WITH NO CHOICE. I wore his coat and let him cover me with his body.

"SHE RAN HERE!" I can hear their voices.

"No Malice." I said... and kissed him.

"WHERE THE FU-" I am not sure if they can recognize me, I hid my hoodie and wore a black coat instead.

NO... NO... PLEASE... DON'T RECOGNIZE ME...

"WHAT ARE YOU DOING FANTASIZING OVER A COUPLE!" It was mother and her bossy attitude.

They left with no mark and that is when I stopped kissing him.

No reaction... as ever. All... I can see... are... things... turning bla-